The last two days was spent wif just sitting at home doing houseworks, eat, watched tv, surfed the net for hours..and talked on the phone for hours too...yeah....
Life is just so great when you realised that there are so many ppl out there who cares for you and are willing to be there for you during your difficult tymes and make you luff so hard when u've been crying so hard..
aniway those are just a few updates abt my life for the past few days;;
but what i need to tell to myself is;;;
I AM A STRONG GURL & IM LEADING A VeryVery HAPPY LIFE NOW.... I WON'T LET ANYTHING BOTHERS ME & MAKE ME GO DOWN AND BEING SUCH A CRY-BABY.... I AM GOING TO STOP CRYING BCOZ ITZ JUST POINTLESS SOBBING OVER POINTLESS PPL & POINTLESS STUFFS..... & IF HE DOESNT LOVE ME, DERE'S MANY OUT DERE WHO WILL...
my family my friends my babes & that GoodFriend of mine... they've been great...i realised that i don't need 'sumone special' becoz i already have alot of 'special people' out there....
aniway,for a start, i already have plans for tomorrow but im not sure yet with whom, where, what...but im sure i will update you readers aniway.... last but not least,, i juz wanna say,, *hey y'all letz be happy & throw all those negatives that can make you go down!*
Saat kau pergi Berlinanglah air mataku Betapa cinta ku rasakan Kebahagiaan itu Kini lenyaplah sudah Tak pernah ku inginkan Perpisahan ini terjadi Ku hanya bisa merelakan Jika memang kau fikir Ini lah yang terbaik Tak perlu kau beri alasan Mengapa kau ingin pergi meninggalkan diriku Karena ku yakin mungkin semuanya itu bisa Membuatmu bahagia Sepenuhnya ku menyadari Bahwa cinta itu tak mesti harus memiliki Namun ku akan terus selalu menyayangimu Setulusnya hati Tak pernah ku inginkan Perpisahan ini terjadi Betapa cinta ku rasakan Kebahagiaan itu Kini lenyaplah sudah Saat kau pergi Berlinanglah air mataku
I always needed time on my own I never thought I'd need you there when I cry And the days feel like years when I'm alone And the bed where you lie is made up on your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you I've never felt this way before Everything that I do Reminds me of you And the jacket you left they lie on my floor And they smell just like you I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now? When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too And when you're gone The words I need to hear to always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you We were made for each other Out here forever I know we were All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I do I give my heart and soul I can hardly breathe, I need to feel you here with me When you're gone The pieces of my heart are missing you When you're gone The face I came to know is missing too When you're gone The words I need to hear will always get me through the day And make it OK I miss you
and we both have broke-up...on our 9 mths annivessary.. itz too complicated to tell you all the reasons here... but he really seems VERY SERIOUS this time... eventhough itz rily painful,hurtful... but i'm learning to swallow it... bit by bit...
and eventhough i haven't stop crying... i'm sure that one day i won't stop luffing... the truth is,i just can't bear to let him go... i've been loving him since our 1st date...
but if datz what he really wants... if datz wart makes him really happy... there's nothing that i can do but to just pray 4 him...
i noe dat i've been a big headache to him since i drastically changed for the bad..
To Irsyarudin Shah Salleh;
im sorry for putting a high expectation on u... im sorry for demanding this and that from u... im sorry for saying out things dat have hurted u... im sorry for some remarks and comments dat i've made.. im sorry coz u can't expect me to change for the good over the nyte...
but just to tell you,i'm feeling so regretful...for my own attitude...i juz hope we can work things out,again...but i'm juz putting on a fat hope..i noe u won't come back..i noe u won't change ur mind...
had a funfunfun outing with the babes & nadzirah...
the theme was 'blackpynk' or 'whitepynk' but sum turned up in diff colour. i've been missing them soo badly la seyy. the night before,i msged each and everyone of my classmates but instead,only 7 turned up out of the 20 frm the class..but still, we had so much fun...so much laughters and taking pictures....
1st, we hang out at the McCafe infront of the shaw house while waiting for Atikah & NaniS. Thought of having lucnh dere but i suggested y not we we eat our meals at FarEast. and so, we ordered cokes , doublechocolates, iced caramel and large fries...proceeded to FarEast next to have lunch....
ard 4+, took the train to cityhall mrt and walked all the way to esplanade.....and we watched a group of primary sch students singing out the christmas carol..as we were watching the show,we noticed an auntie swinging happily to the tunes....
The Last Something That Meant Anything- MayDay Parade
Well I thought that we could sit around and, talk for hours About things I couldn't say to you And things that we could never do and, This conversation has had no face When the words take days you can re-write and erase anything
You know my heart (so tell me all thats needed, cause i don't really want this) Knows all this
And I'll borrow words from all my favourite paragraphs To write about all of these faded things We hope would mean the most to me And Each line is sent i have found a new pages of hope for the days when i fell like I've lost Everything
You know my heart (so tell me all thats needed, cause i don't really want this) Knows all these lines (cause my jealous heart really can't take that) So I'll sing this song for everyone thats come out lost
But, I'll be ok (Is that what you want me to say) It's called breakup Cause it's broken But I'll be ok (is that what you want me to say) It's called breakup Cause it's broken
I'll be ok Is that what you want me to say It's called Breakup Cause it's broken
I'll be ok, is that what you want me to say Cause it's broken And well, try so bad to tell me that you Make it that you're sorry and the Lines we said Never meant the words we meant Cause it's broken Every kiss that you could ever mean The everything that takes you back The chocolate, rose, the kisses That like chasing through your misses
I'll be ok Is that what you want me to say It's called Breakup Cause it's broken
Well I thought that we could sit around and, talk for hours About things I couldn't say to you And things that we could never do * i am not talking about breaking-up or wanting one..no definitely not..i just still love him...and i'm sorry for the changes in my attitude or juz simply the changed me.....and to everyone out dere who cares, just tell me if u don't feel good or sensed something wrong about me..i will really apprecciate it...u don't really have to go to him in the 1st place...*
awwww !!!!! i rily miss this song !!! havent heard it for like 6 mths? haha....eventhough it have no relations between me & him, but i fall in love with it the moment when he 1st played this song while we were on our 1st date at boat quay...that was like close to 9 months back...
i've been feeling *i dun noe how to describe* about this relationship. i no longer listen to Beyonce'sdangerously in love, no longer listen to Amr diab'swa malau, no longer feels "aaahhhhhhhh" if i happen to came across those songs of US. literally, the word 'flat' shud be considered.
9 months of LovePassion, i can say that it has been thinning,rapidly. i dun feel 'estatic' or 'rily looking forward' to meet him or wen we go out, just like just now......
i am sorry dear, in case this hurts u, but i just don't want to lie to myself, and moreover to u... please show me that you care about me, not just care about this relationship.... i know we have to & must change.....but i just missed you.....
so plz dear don't let me go away and find a relief who i feel can care about me more than u do....i rily hope that won't happen...
*anyway,he didn't choose my poster that i did wif Q as the 'official poster' for the MovieMarathon. My intention was just to play a part for his event....but yar..looks like itz a waste...im sorry Q... *
and sorry! i stole ur pictures!~ hee; u took alot of irsya's face....i just can't resist..~~
from left-right; his "adik",HIM,his mama,his baba
he just love burgers; (eeyuw! baju KAPPA!)
when eating burgers,i will only take the patty while he get the bread..talk of bullying? YEAH;
THAT barber is to blame...
his big-breakfast...
die ni memang....mane2 pon boley lepak~~
. . . and i'm missing him . . . the last time i saw him was last monday when i came down to his werkplace from an appointment with kak zetty to surprised him and bought for him an Adidas wallet which he've been eyeing for......and separated for about 4 days bcoz of holidays to KL...but insya-Allah seeing him this Wednesday.....aniway,,,,
awcchh....i LOVE that look......
and who says that i'm a flirt?? i simply LOVE my own boyfriend..........
there is only a guy namedIRSYARUDIN SHAHthat i love....
and Q is just a good friend of mine....and my boyfriend is very aware of that... i know how to draw the lines....yess i do love Q..but as a friend....just like how i love my friends & my babes...i didn't even try to be a flirt....why did u have to be so emotiOnal? ouh come on!~ you are not even brave to put down your name here.... and you even dare to tell me to behave....
suddenly my blog became so popular...i meanSOO POPULARR..!! wahh i didn't expect to be so famous after just a post... aniway,thanx to those who have showed that they 'really care' about the situation i'm in now...(well,not now but a few days ago..)
those advices were so meaningful that it makes me think not twice but more than that.. and also thanx for those experiences that u all have shared..for siding him and all that..okae2 i noe u are sure gotta say that "ehk i'm not siding anyone here,,," butt thats okae for me even if u do or doesn't...it doesn't rily matter...coz you all judge based on just a post..you all didn't know the whole story..you all acted as if you know him really well...but as for me who is with him for almost everiday single day,i can say that i know him inside & out, i know his secrets, i know his weakness, i know his strength, i know his characters and such...
and and and..please..i beg you to leave your real name here...don't just dare to leave critics but don't even dare to leave YOUR NAME..did you know how infuriating it is..?
okae,just until here..i'm tired...anyway,I love You Dear and thanx Q!~
Fasehah Omar