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Monday, 11 June 2007 ; 08:28Y
IM FYNE WITHOUT YOU~
it all begin with a happy start. i will always luff weneva u are around me. but do u know dat i dun rilly like you in the first place??.. lagi2 after we started 2 msg each other.. i was totally despised wif u.. aft u told me dat u like me.. i dun believe in u..i noe it took u some time to convince dat to me..









tapi tuhan maha kuasa..he opened my heart and i started to like you aft our first date.. i find u gorgeous,gentle,sweet,funny,very entertaining,and very crappy too..and most importantly,pious.. simply said, tall, fair and gorgeous.. i noe you are blushing and grinning, Irsyarudin Shah Salleh. and do u noe dat i rily like ur name??..but too bad takde makne..only the "DIN" which means RELIGION..but if i'm not mistaken, SHAH means KING.. lagi lah awk tersenyom kambing ehh..hee..









hmm..talking about our first date, i can still remember 14th march 2007, wateva happened on dat day. u asked me out. but it was juz a short outing but a memorable one. and becoz i like BOAT QUAY soo mucchh dat i'm neva jelak 2 go dere. u noe i love it dere kan?? and i can still remember ur response wen i look at ur g-shock watch.. u were all like " hp kite da same, den my watch is g-shock..urs is baby-g..." halfway u ckp, i menyampok... "ouh abey so kirekan u nak ckp ape nie??'' haha...touching la konon.. n ouh yess..i can still remember, wen u get ur face closer to my left side of my face..but den i distance it a bit.. and wen u put ur right arm on my left thigh... itz sweet la tapi i'm all like "eh die nie..ape seyy...









and irsyarudin shah, i gave u a lot of nickname ehh?? ur name sedap2 tapi i called u "panjang la galah la traffic light la giant la kambing la kappa la" hmm..ade lagi tak?? heez..and wen i called u kambing, u answer back "yer princess" haha...irsyarudin shah always make me luff..









we were so close dat everyone thought dat we were together, and tak kurang jugak ade yg ingat dat i am his sister!!! haha..maybe bcoz of the differences in our heights!! haha.. we were not together la everyone..but itz juz dat we have feelings for each other, and dere is LOVE between us, but we chose not to be in a relationship bcoz based on the previous relationships dat we've been thru, we realised dat itz not the time yet..and the past love built is not based on love for Allah..we are humans afterall..we learn from our mistake..









well syg, everyone have their own past, everyone have their own black history..the same goes to you and the same goes to me. but dat is where we grow up from syg. we noe our mistake, we noe our sins, we noe wat we've done, so we learn from dere, and pray dat Allah will constantly open the babul-maghfirah for us to repent.. dun let the history haunts you. remeber dat Allah is dere to forgive you if you seek forgiveness from HIM..









i remember waking you up daily for ur subuh prayer. i wud call you so early in the morning juz to make sure dat u didn't overslept. but i noe, dere is a few occasion when u received my call, u juz ignored it aft hanging up the fone kann?? i noe dear... but juz wanna remind you, once u solat subuh early in the morning, the rest of the day will be filled wif barakah and rahmah from Allah. so don't complain if your life lately has been quite nonsense and miserable. so dear plz start waking up for subuh..i noe itz hard,but plz try.........











i love it wen each tyme we go out or each tyme we meet, u will always send me home. regardless of how tired or how lazy you are. actually i dun even mind if u don't send me home. i understand. u can't send me home bcoz u have ur own reasons. i know. and under the block 133 infront of the letter box area is where we always parted and say gudbye and gudnyte and takecare. each tyme i passed by dat area aft returning from sch or aft returning from anywhere, the thought of you and the thought of us always cum to my mind....and at dat point of tyme, i began to miss you......











ANG MO KIO and AMK HUB rily bring a lot of memories to me..i can simply say dat ang mo kio bring the both of us together. ang mo kio was your previous werkplace. and itz easy to find and look for stuffs dere..bcoz you are the C.S.O. dere..haha..yelah, being a customer service officer of coz lah u noe every single thing inside the shopping centre..i remember wen u complained to me dat people tend to ask the same question to you at the information counter..[ where is the NTUC??] HEEE....n ouh yesss...i know the answer!!!! itz [straight ahead down the escalator!!] kan irsya kann?? and i also remember..wen i waited for you for ur lunch break so dat we can have lunch together. and syg..remember wen i surprised you while you was werking..??? haha...i love dat surprised look on your face!!! and i'm so sorry for the chicken rice yg sejuk nak mampos tu...hahah...but u still eat it rite?? coz i noe datz your favourite...!!




and i wanna say "thanx" dear for introducing and for persuading me to join yaQin.. i rily had a lot of funn being wif them. they were they wen i cried and they were dere wen i luffed a lot and they were dere to give me advices. it iz rily rily rily nice knowing them. i always look forward in seeing them...




dear, i love it wen each time we made fun of each other. i will luff at you. and u will luff at me. my happy moments was with you. bcoz you always make me happy. with ur noises with ur crapz with ur irritating burpz wif ur nonsense with ur tickles here and dere. and i love the long grinz on ur face..coz it displays ur kinda small teeth wif kinda big pink gumz..heeeeee......and i love my irsyarudin shah without his specs...coz he look damn *gorgeous and good looking* dat way...he's eyes are so mesmerising dat i dare not to look at him for a long minutes wen he stared at me... and i always get to hear his heartbeat weneva i'm close to him...his heart beats so wildly....so damn wildly...ahhhh i can't stop thinking abt irsyarudin shah....




and dear, i know and i can sense from every single movements or actions of urs. i can tell wen you are happy, i can tell wen you are sad, i can tell wen you are dissappointed, i can tell wen you are tired, i can tell wen you are hurt, i can tell wen you are furious...i can tell irsya....i dunno where i got diz "ilmu" from....i guess itz juz natural......




but too bad for me, all tingz will come to an end eventually...the same goes to fasehah and irsyarudin...we can't keep diz ting between us hanging juz like dat...we have our dreamz to achieve...we have other important stuffs to commit to...love can wait...i have to learn to let go of things or sumone dat i love...and if itz meant for me, it will return back.. so dere will be no more late night calls between us, no more him sending me home (which he have stopped doing it), no more wateva tingz dat we shared...juz no more anything....even though we are 'frenz' now, the feelings for him is still dere. my heart still beats wen he's around me. honestly, sumtimes, wen he's next to me, i feel like hugging him and kissing him...but NO! i cannot do that if i love him..coz i have to help him 2 endure all these 'obstacles' from Allah...HE juz wanna test our iman, to see if we are strong enuff to face all these bisikan syaitan...and at the same time i'm helping myself too...maybe Allah meet irsyarudin wif fasehah,juz to test the iman of HIS poor servants..........wateva it is, THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES, IRSYARUDIN SHAH SALLEH............

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