Sunday, 10 June 2007 ; 03:43Y
IM FYNE WITHOUT YOU~
i juz came back from the camp organized by college east muslim students network n co-operated by the yaqins.. ok,itz his "H.I.T.S. challenge"...can be so-called fun..even wif the VERY small number of participants..we managed to pull thru..and at dat point of tyme,i'm not in gud termz wif irsya..so he was around during the camp..but i didnt even talked to him or layan him..i juz have diz "heck care" attitude..itz all becoz of wat had happened to us a few days back.. i can see dat he was trying 2 steal glances and look at me from far..or weneva i was not in sight,he will start to like look around..itz rily rily rily hard seeing him walking around me,talking to other people..haiz..FYI,i actually cried for like twice becoz of him n bcoz of diz throughout the camp..but wat i juz can't simply 4get was wen i gave him back his mmc card reader without even looking at him..and he was like "takpe,u take it.." and i juz like geleng my kpale.. and den like few minutes aft dat,wen i wanna take out my bag,i saw the mmc card reader already inside..i was like "haiz....wen will diz end.." and i saw him looking so stressful..i felt pity and i juz feel like comforting him n hugging him..but dat is na'uzubillah..i mean the hugging part. aft our camp ended,sum of us helped out abg adi wif the photoshop workshop..and he was dere..but he juz lied down on the floor..wif the tired look on his face..and i was like "ya-allah kesiannyer die.." so,yar,allah moved n softens my heart to go n be nice to him..so i started off wif sharing wif him my pepsi drink,and ask him if he his ok..and he said dat he's juz hungry..so i go n bought him his all time favourite chicken rice..and aft he finished his meal,we went to raffles place city hall..and went to diz sum spot below the escalator at esplanade..and we slept..huahua..aft dat,we went our separate ways..but i rily can't forget the sentence dat he said
"ok i go simei tau..u take care..apape jumpe je kat mesjid..or u can juz msg me..assalamulaikum" ....and i was all like "only allah noes how i felt at dat point of time"...i didn't have the strenght to jawab balik his salam...and i almost cried heavily wen i was already in the train..but i juz wanted him to noe, even if he can't,even if he don't,i will still love him...diz feelings is ikhlas for him..insya-allah..but only time will tell...Labels: irsya