Monday, 11 June 2007 ; 01:11Y
IM FYNE WITHOUT YOU~
it all started in a day of march 2007. well actually, to be exact, itz 2005. irsyarudin shah adds fasehah to his contact list. but we only have chatted for like once,or maybe twice,or maybe thrice?? i have no idea. it happened so long ago. i only onlined to the msn like once or twice per month. becoz,in 2005,my computer started to crashed. and i don't have any computer since dat. so i lost contact wif sum ppl on my list. and earlier diz year, my parenz bought a new pc. sold up the old one to the karung guni man.one night in march, someone wif the email add talqin07@hotmail.com pm me. saying assalamualaikum and such kind of greetings. i asked him who he is. itz rather weird bcoz he was already in my contact list during dat tyme. and what is more weird is dat i still remember his email add as in his contact have been in my list for already a long time. so we began to intro to each other more about ourselves. he's in the ite simei, aged 19, living in simei and currently working part time. and he asked me whether i'm single or attached. i choose not to answer. bcoz my r'ship was rocking at dat point of time. but he kept "pestering" me. so i asked him "does it matter if i'm attached?". he said "i'm an introvert, i dun wana cause sum disturbance..and let's say if i happened to asked u out, juz to make sure dat she's not sumone's else girlfriend..". so yar, i said dat i'm attached and told him dat my r'ship is on the rock, but i dun wana say why..the next day (i think), he's online again..and we chatted, talked abt stuffs, talked abt football la ape la..bcoz on the same night,there's a match between (hmm..who n who eh?? i can't remember)..so i said i like michael ballack n such..and den i saw dat he got a webcam so i invited him..huahua..i was bored at dat time and juz wana play around. but den he kept cancelling it off, and i kept inviting him and started to get so called "agitated" and i asked 'why" and he said "i can let you view my webcam,but on one condition, tell me more about why u said dat ur r'ship is on the rock?".. so i told him abt the reasons..and i told him dat i've never liked my guy before, and i dunno how the r'ship wif my guy can lasted for 9 mths plus. and den aft telling him my story, he let me view his webcam..haha..at last..and i spotted his hair so neat, so i joked wif him "bang tadi pegy set rambot kerr??" and he replied "no lah..i juz came back from werk". haha. notty me. sumhow later i excused myslf saying dat i need 2 sleep bcoz i have a flagday tomorrow. so, we exchanged number (i tink so). and i'm off to bed, but i kept getting msg from m1 showing me dat "sorry u cannot receive incoming calls because u have insufficient value in ur card". it happened for a few times, but becoz i was too sleepy, i juz doze off.........the next morning, i went to causeway point to meet my frenz dere for our flag day. so i topped up my hp and the next thing i knew, i got a call from nine-three-four-five blah blah blah blah..it'z from irsyarudin...hekhek..i asked him if he did called me a few tymez last nite and he said yes, later i said "awk..nanti klw apape,kiter msg awk k?". a few minutez aft dat, he msged me, i can still remember his msg> "are u using prepaid?" i replied "yess..y?". he replied "nothing..juz asking..actually me too.." i replied " ouh ok..i'm using m1..hmm..tak keje ke nari??" he replied "i'm otw to werk..so u are having ur flag day eh??" i replied "yeah..mcm mlz ah..rite nw at wudlandz cozway point..btw u keje ane ah?" he replied " i werk at ang mo kio..kat shopping centre yg baru tu" i replied "ouh da bukak eh?..u keje ape? ntuc eh?" he replied "yerla yg ade ntuc tu..tapi bukan ntuc..same building jugak.." and i neva replied again aft dat, bcoz it was juz so boringgg..haha. i was all like "nak bilang, bilang la..tak payah la nak kasi hint2..mlz aku nak teka..mcm la shopping centre tu die yang punyer sampai malu n segan sgt nak bilang die keje ape.." hahah..i noe i was mean..done wif the day..so night turns up, i online again, saw him online too, he pm me, and we chatted..aft dat he called me on the fone..and we talked for long hours..the thing is, he called me using his hp, and he's using prepaid, so i kept reminding him, but den he said, "nahh itz ok.." n i joked him "it caused you like one week of ur pay" ...... i tink he still remember diz line.........the day aft,i broke off wif my guy..finally, i was free from a r'ship dat wasn't built on like n love (from my side)....and during the nyte,i talked wif irsya, but i didn't told him dat i've already broke up wif my guy. aft a while,he kept saying to me dat he dun wana be the 3rd party bcoz he dun wana feel hurt in the end. i think i can already guess wat he means. maybe he is trying to say dat he likes me or wateva. ok so i told him dat itz already over between me n my guy. if i'm not wrong,dat was wen he told me dat he likes me..the next morning, i got a msg from him, but i dun rily remember wat it was but i only remember the last part "tapi klw ade jodoh,insya-allah..hehheehehehhe..." i was all like "wat the?/". ah yerla..mcm la aku pcaye.. and i also was like "eee die nie merepek seyy..aku baru je kenal die brape hari..da bbl mcm gini..mcm gini ke aku nak pcyae lelaki??" . i deleted his msg staightaway!!. to be honest,i dun trust guyz. wateva they say.den,sum day aft dat,on 14th of march,he wana meet me,so yar,i said ok. since he finished werk at 6,we decided to meet like aft 6 gitu, aft a gurlz day out at town. so, we decided to meet at orchard mrt station. so i waited 4 him at the staircase infront of the popular bookstore. sum 10 minz aft dat,he arrived, i was all like "ehh cepatnyer??!!""...lepas da brape steps naek tangge tu, baru la perasan, i was rily in TOTAL SHOCK!!! becoz..he's SOOOO TALLL!! DAMN TALL!! i was sumwhere at his shoulder..imagine me walking beside him all the way at orchard..i wass sooo paiseyyy...wen i talked to him,i didn't even look at him..soo paisey jalan sebelah die..i sumhow have diz feeling dat ppl were staring at us...hahaha...we walked straight to al-falah MOSque to pray. aft dat,i "complained" to him dat i have blister on my both feet. so we walked from the MOSque to Centrepoint. i remember him being "gatal". he hold my hands while i was walking slowly, but i let go of it. hekhek. found a GUARDIAN and looked for plaster. he wanted to pay for me, but i said nO. so, he pakai kan me the plaster at diz sumwhere ard the lift area. aft dat, we watched a performance by a "bald but hot guy" who is playing wif fire while doing capoeira. aft dat,we trained to raffles place and he went straight to maulana MOSque to pray 4 maghrib..i waited for him..and den, tau-tau jek i got a a shock from behind..irsya "bahhhhhh" me while gripping my shoulder..naseb baek la hp ku tak jatuh masok singapore river..hahah..aft da dudok2 tu..he sent me home naek train..while in the train, he tickles me here n dere..i was so geli.. and at the same time, dalam hatiku berkata "ya allah..die nie..geletek2 aku..tak sopan btol la org depan sume nmpak...org depan melayu lagi.." so i said "awk..takmu lah.." da sampai yishun,walked all the towardz blk 133..aft saying gudbye n gudnyte, he put his hand to my face, mcm pegang my cheek so affectionately..so we parted aft dat. aft i a few minutes reached home, he msged me to ask if i can call him, i replied "hey gorgeous,can i like refresh myself first, n den aft dat i call u" he replied.."sure2..take ur time,beautiful" awwww...heee...so aft dat i called him..aft putting down the fone,he msged me sumting..i stil have dat msg wif me..
" i just sent someone who i treasure back home. i am actaully not hoping too much on her coz i noe dat she might dissappint me. but our first was interesting. i don't know if she believe love at first sight, but i do..."
so i replied, " honestly irsya, i do like you, i do like the way u look, i do like the way you treat me. but i blum lagi quite noe who you are. and itz still damn too early to have any assuarance..."
so....dat was how irsyarudin and fasehah get to know each other..itz a long story, i know. tanx for reading. and tanx for ur patience. will tell u more in my next post..
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