Saturday, 12 May 2007 ; 20:31Y
IM FYNE WITHOUT YOU~
i am feeling down..i had a conversation wif him yesterdae..a painful one..not rily i shud say..itz juz dat we've been straining from each other..maybe he was juz bz wif his packed schedule;ms,yaqins,sch,studies..2 name a few..n he have a lot of stuffs 2 tink abt..his families,his activities..n me..probably i was juz being too exaggerated by calling him everidae..bt itz not like i called him 4 every single tyme..i've only been calling him once evridae..itz not like i disturbed him.....ok,i noe he needed tyme of his own..he needed sum personal space..n so am i..i needed one too..n so i called him yesterdae..i told him 2 "juz treat me as a fren"..2 juz treat me like how he treated the rest of the yaqins..he was luffing all the way..saying dat "he dun mind"...sumhow i have a sense dat he was juz trying 2 hide his true feelings..trying 2 hide the fact dat he was actually hurt..hmm......but the moment wen i told him 2 "juz 4get abt wateva dat we've went thru..juz 4get abt wateva dat have happened between us..juz 4get abt wateva dat we've done..juz 4get abt the feelings.."....i heard a silence from he's side..itz like he was totally speechless..n he tried covering up by *luffing*...my goodness..i can tell n i can read by sumone's tone of voice...y did he have 2 hide his feelings?? y did he have 2 pretend dat he was all rite......*sigh*......how i wish dat i've neva said dat 2 him......to tell the truth,i rillyy have feelings for him.....and the love for him was dere.....still dere......i love irsyarudin....but he juz dun seem 2 care....so i'll juz keep diz feeling with me.....n only time will tell............
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