I belong to me......

2008-09-05T09:21:00.000-07:00

When I stand in a crowded room
I feel alone like nobody's there
And when u speak so cold to me
I can see your breath in the air

It's taking it's toll on me
In the bathroom taking showers
So u don't see me cry
Baby it's such a crime
I've tried to feel confident
I'm bitter, you're not making sense
I missed you till you almost took
My sanity, I'm starting a new verse

You're like poetry
Hiding behind the words you speak
Changing the words of the story
You say you don't love me
Then say that you love me

I'm fighting
You're hiding behind the words
You're speaking
Changing the words
I'm lost in the verse
You say you don't love me
Then say that you love me
Why are you hiding?

When I give you gratitude
You act like you don't hear me speak
And when I tell you what you do to me
You don't even hear the truth
What are you trying to prove?
I stare out the window for hours
Cause you won't listen to me
You won't even look in my eyes

I've tried to feel confident
I'm bitter, you're not making sense
I missed you till you almost took
My sanity, I'm starting a new verse

You're like poetry
Hiding behind the words you speak
Changing the words of the story
You say you don't love me
Then say that you love me
I'm fighting

You're hiding behind the words
You're speaking
Changing the words
I'm lost in the verse
You say you don't love me
Then say that you love me
Why are you hiding?

Don't believe what you're saying
I read your face and I'm blanking
Cause I don't know what's in front of my face
I try to feel confident
I've tried to feel confident
I'm bitter, you're not making sense
I missed you till you almost took
My sanity,I'm starting a new verse like

You're like poetry
Hiding behind the words you speak
Changing the words of the story
You say you don't love me
Then say that you love me
I'm fighting
You're like poetry
Hiding behind the words you speak
Changing the words of the story
You say you don't love me
Then say that you love me
I'm fighting
You're like poetry
Hiding behind the words you speak
Changing the words of the story
You say you don't love me
Then say that you love me
I'm fighting
You're hiding behind the words
You're speaking
Changing the words
I'm lost in the verse
You say you don't love me
Then say that you love me
Why are you hiding...

2008-08-19T02:29:00.000-07:00

best tak klw ade matae yg same school or same werk?
boley pegy sch or werk same-same...break time same2...skip lesson same2...
balek same-same.....bile tgh lesson..skali nmpk matae kite mengendap kt tingkap luar class....
kite pon kdg2 buat mcm gitu jugak...nampak matae kite tgh blaja...pastuh klw die toleh kt tingkap..lmbai lah "hye!" ke..smile ke..flying kiss ke..
pastuh klw whoeva lesson yg end dulu,tunggu lah smpai yg the other half habis...sweet lah konon....

den klw walking home from school,pimpin2 tangan....alangkah indahnya dunia ketika itu...
tp tk best nye,psl hari-hari jumpe....mule2 mmg sweet tp lame2 boring....true tk? ntahlah...
saye tidak berbual dari pengalaman...kerane saye tidak pernah ade relationship dimane my bf is frm the same sch or same werk...coz post break-up confirm kecho gilz nye...

2008-08-07T01:43:00.000-07:00

UPDATES!!!

today i decided to blog coz itz my off day. just staying at home surfing the net, chatting wif out-of-touch frenz..the moment i went online,almost everybody started to pm me..hehe...really,i mean it.

dannkkk...i miss werking..i miss starbucks...im werking on these 3 consecutive days starting frm 2mrw..&&& NDP is cuming up! i cant wait to work on dat day! everyone is gonna be on floor. we are surely gonaa be damn bz...sb-ms wil be a hell on 9th of august....

i miss Syahril~~~~~~
he is going to be on leave for the whole week starting from monday.
& he have since promised to pick me up everyday frm werk.....
so..im gona be bz dating my boyfriend for a week...*winkk*,,*tk penting*...

2008-07-29T08:40:00.000-07:00

OLAAAA!!!!! im back after almost 2 months missing from bloggin!!!

i've been *scolded* by Yatt, Farlyanna, Q... n sum of my, 'avid readers'..for not updating...

sorry lah bnyk2....i didnt mean not to blog...itz juz dat i've been busy...

i dun have a laptop..n im rarely at home...so yar.....sorry okies...

im afraid dat im unable to recall past events dat has happened to me..eventhough sum were the greatest bestest days of my lives...

werking= has been damn fun lah...pejam celik pejam celik..itz been nearly 3 mths i've been in starbucks..n 4 now,i neva thought of Quitting...jiwe starbucks seyy...haaaa...

lovelife = Today is Syahril Omar & Fasehah Omar's 1 monthsary....our names sounds adk beradek? haa..no..his full name is Syahril Omar bin Tayib..but,,urgh..he's in camp..suckz sey...
last sunday..i was supposed to be at As-syakirin mosQue 4 the muslimah day thingy..but since it was my cuzzin's wedding,i was unable to make it..but halfway thru the wedding,my manager called me asked for help wether i can cum down 4 werk becoz dere were only a manager and a partner werking & gawd it was a sunday at Marina sQuare! so i penat-ly came down to werk..but it was stil fun lah..ended werk at 7.30,baby was waiting 4 me to knock off...den we went to catch The Dark Night at the GV at level 2..the show started at 9pm..n my goodness! it ended at 1145!..
i cudnt even understand the whole movie luh...was shivering n was all the way in baby's *kong* arms...teehee..aft the movie,hanged-out wif Taufik,Asad,Ariff,Aiman who were doing closing in store..
12.30, went home wif baby by cab... =)

i am now left wif 80 bucks in my bank account. & i've got a week to survive on it. i've spent a lot from shopping.. dere was once wen i bought newclothes from Zara,TopShop,Cotton On,Bugis street for 3 days straight!! rabak perr..mentang2 sale sane sini....buwaishhhhhh.....

i tink datz it 4 my updates now...im sleepy & tired...have to wake up early coz 2mrw im doing opening!! yeahhh!! seeing my Sanjay tmrw! n making his drink*Decaf Tall Mocha n his Orange Muffin*
i've run out of ideas...im cuming back to blog soon...till here den..

Fasehah Omar
<3
Syahril Omar......
happy 1mthsary bby...
xoxo...

2008-06-19T16:59:00.000-07:00

i am soo missing himm..
i only get to talk to him for like 7 minz ONLY everiday..
& weneva he call me..i'll be bz at werk...
and OnlY get to meet him for abt once a week..
coz he's in camp.....
& urghhh...i miss my hawt baby...
hawt arms hawt chest hawt abs..hehehehehehe....
*drroooollllll*....

2008-06-14T14:03:00.000-07:00

i noe i've been away for Quite sum time now.
i've been veryveryvery busy lately.
so,expect late updates from me.

anyway,
im getting gugugaga over *my Bby*...
but..errrppp...nope.....i dun have a bf YET..

datz it for nw..
coz itz stil in stage 1..
i dun want to get hooked up
not just yet...
coz i still wanna enjoy my *ming-gling* moments....
nyehehe...

*my Bby* dedicated diz song to me..

Together - Neyo

2008-06-08T09:42:00.000-07:00

honestly,
yahh,i missed him.
in fact i did cried,but nt heavily.
juz a few teardrops.
i guess itz juz a normal thing to do.
to let out the feelings inside.
i've not been missing him evasince when.?
coz i've been too bz to think of anything like diz.
but since im having a free time,
the thots juz came out of nowhere.
i noe he is a happy man now.
im happy for him.
yup,im very sure.

*i miss dat jejaka-di*
juz suddenly miss-ing aje
bukannye still love-ing
tibe2 teringat
bukannye bermakne mengingati
derez a difference dere..

2008-06-05T10:52:00.000-07:00

hey readers!!
(dearest GFs,BFs,Babes,Dudes,Ex-gfs,EX-BOYFRIEND(s),Avid reader,Bloghopper,Passerby,Chomss)...

i owe u guys a big apologies 4 not updating my blog...i've been bz like madd...hope diz piece of post tells u dat im still alive..alhamdulillah
& im doing greatt,as always..alhamdulillah...

only dat my wisdom tooth is killing me,againn....
the gum is tearing up bit-by-bit..day-by-day...
*sicksick*...

bt the thought of him can cherish me up...
i saw *him* (frm far,oni 4 a few minz,didnt even get to talk) last sunday,
& went home frm werk wif *him* last tuesday night..
we were supposed to go to amk together..but since both of us finished werk late..
so yar,
Btw, i surprised him wif a drink dat i made myself..& he was like "ehhh u soo sweet"...
he is so choms-gilz-babz...ok,stop it sey fas...
*when can we meet again?,,for im starting to miss u already*....

maybe 2mrw i will publish a longer post okey...
i need time to upload sum pictures taken..

finally,
to Farlyanna & Hidayatt,,i hope i satisfied the both of u wif diz post..

yatt~thanx 4 calling me kentanng okey! bt i stil love u anyway~
farlyanna~hey EX-GF! haha...i miss u too lah! c u soon okeys!

*i tried so hard not to hear,but u talked so loud*

2008-05-28T06:28:00.000-07:00

oh hello!
i've not been blogging for abt a few days oledi kan? was bz & cant rily find the tyme. coz the past few days have been doing closing. reached home close to 3. haha. Fasehah break record uhh.

anyway,diz sounds late,bt juz wanna say dat the RhtyhmDePasion aka RDP did a great job opening the curtain for Singapore Arts Festival at the Boat Quay last Friday evening. i was from werk,clocked out at 4 bt hanged around til evening just to wait for RDP's gig. yatt said "aww so sweet of u" .* i noe u are reading diz yatt!* i was dere & witnessed the whole piece. finally managed to say hye & gave a warm hand-shake to imah & sammie & haiyul. korg nye beat power gedegak la sey! ramai org tgk! yatt sampai berpeluh-peluh! geeeesss~

after dat,headed to muttaQin for Maulid. didnt even volunteer to help out in anything. i wasnt feeling well & wasnt in a pretty mood. coudnt even stop my cough dat tyme. & + i was in a great pain..dere was like as if a sumone or a sumthing had pulled out anything from my abdomen. so i just sat down one corner,kept Quiet,grinned or luffed whereva patot. bt given my nature,i just cant seem to stop myslef from being estatic. takkan nak nangis kan? i guess the espresso shots made me go crazy. hahaha....

Saturday ~watched Ayat-Ayat Cinta at Cathay cineplex,followed by a book fair at Wisma Indah Masjid Kassim & i bought the novel itself! haha...after maghrib met my family up for Dhia Danisha's 1st birthday party bbq pit at Aloha resorts .

Sunday~ Kak Wany's bro's wedding at YCK. Was so fun & very kecoh-rable. i sanged the karaoke lah okey! duet-ed wif Kak Wany,lagu *Di persimpangan Dilema*..sungguh taching-gilz-babz seyy..heheh...

after the wedding,i need to go home Quick & change coz i gotta rush to a Friend's BBQ pit at Sembawang Beach. didnt stayed long. my parents picked me up at 9. for sure. no pictures taken 4 the bbq coz i didnt bring along my camera. my hp camera has no flash.

Monday & Tuesday~ worked from 5-closing. although it was very tiring,i was & am having fun. it didnt feel like going to work. seriously. coz deres no irritating colleagues. irritating mmg uh ade, tp sume case irritating yg suke buat klaka..yeahh. plus the warm customers & making drinks! haha...i MUST say THANX to Aisyah, Ina, Oyah, Taufik aka Baby, Aiman, AzriQ, IzraQ, AtiQ, Cicah, Nurul, for guiding me all the way to where i am now;done wif all my modules,& waiting for my Bar-test to be a certified Barista. & oso to the other partners whom i have not get to work wif yet. u all gave me a new life lah,seriously! always "FAS here FAS dere"...haha...

on another note,
i miss the babes.
i miss having a sumone to call baby.
i miss having a sumone to call dear.
i miss having a sumone to embrace.
i miss having a boyfriend.
but bleaghh..i dun need one or any at the moment..coz im happy & enjoying my single life right now. im sorry to have disappointed sum males out dere. im sorry to have ignored ur constant calls/msges/im-s. im sorry to sum dat i have TOTALLY IGNORED & cant be bothered aft the 1st date. if u need an explanation on diz,plz wait 4 the next few posts.

im happy,im doing great..dun worry about me.
xoxo.

2008-05-21T09:34:00.000-07:00

work has been fun. itz been 2 days now. work progress? ..i have learnt how to make the Frappucinos ice blended! cool lah kann? my partners are great,,very fun..especially nurul,whom i taught was so menjeng & cheeky-ish during my 1st impression at store. ouh well,never judge a book by itz cover.

*ape yg di-lihat buruk itu lah yg sebenarnye baik, dan ape yang di-lihat baik itu lah yang sebenarnye adakalanya lebih buruk*..

& hot chocolate is a must 4 me every morning now since i've been doing opening. & guess wart? partners in opening shift are reQuired to report to werk at 7 am~ meaning; woke up at 5 am, get out of the house at 6 am. & walking all the way frm ct hall mrt to ct link to marina sQuare is damn weird..coz ders no crowd. just A line of ppl going to werk. & i hate ct link coz it makes me goes to werk late. so jauh mann nak jalan.

on the other note;
watz Hawt currently,presumably the "David-David" ting of the American Idol's final contestant.

oaky im not an "American idol freak"..& i have neva watched diz season's nor the past ones..except for the auditions round...but if u ask me which David will i prefer? i will definitely choose David Cook aka the rock guy..coz he's so manly..David Archuleta is too young for my liking..he's stil a Boy...sorry...

& im not SOOO infatuated wif David Cook..itz juz dat i LOVE his hit
"Always be my baby"....
didnt even care who will win the title....

2008-05-19T00:24:00.000-07:00

*u try to be Cool but u look like a Fool to me*

Vesak Day. the class outing is postponed to another date. bcoz most of us cannot make it. sum already started their in-store training. bt datz okay.

Hidayatt said dat he have since noticed me taking pictures wif my teeth on..hehe..
actually he's the one who suggested it luhh..mule2 try to smile like dat,pastuh lame2 da terbiase..anyway Yatt,thanx 4 being an avid reader of my blog..

Finally i had a COKE after a week long of Coffees. Bold,Medium,Dark,Iced. start of class,coffee tasting..not just once but thrice..break time,coffee again..walking towards the mrt,another Tall cup of Mocha..being repeated for a week straight..gosh too much caffeine already. but fortunately im not like Amru,who is addicted to the smell of Kenya coffee beans. He even took a whole packet of it & bring back home. if dere's a term called "glue sniffing"..den diz is about "coffee sniffing". darn,im missing him already.

Im excited abt tomorrow. coz itz gonna be my 1st day at store. to be honest la ehh,my store partners,are really cute,& im talking abt the guys..(hehe). for girls,so far i saw 3 gud-looking ones. i tend to like gorgeous people. bukan kerane meng-gatal,but i love to adore,as in i'll be like "wahh he/she's so prettyyyyy..." "he/she's so cute..". dlm erti kata yang lain,memuji ciptaan Tuhan....*wink*....

anyway,i dun need U to tell me to be careful of dat sumone. im a strict,firm person. u noe im strong in the outside. u noe my weaknesses,but u definitely noe abt my strenghts. im no push-over. i am surely not a lembek or lemah dgn pujukan or rayuan. eventhough im girlish, always nk bermanje (like wat u said) , carry a purse or a bag wif make-ups & girls essentials in it, not a 'sports' or outdoor kinda girl hu wears only t-shirts & jeans & slippers(i mean flip-flops) to AnYwHeRe.

*i see dat u are acting like a sumbody else & getting me frustrated*

u noe i can take care of my own self ryte? u noe dat i have a lot of frenz wif every kinds of characters & behaviour,& not to forget those nasty ones. but have u ever heard or saw i becum like them? ok i dun want to ckp besar coz i dun wan ppl to call me 'a Macam Paham' later. i may be a 17+ going to 18,which is stil young, but i definitely know watz going on around diz world, i definitely know how to face such circumstances in which i had to deal wif individuals/groups/peers/adults from all sorts of personalities backgrounds habits behaviours & all dat. which is including u too. so dun worry ehh. i think U are even more dangerous den diz sumone lah.

*biar hilang duit..kerane duit boley di-cari..tp asl jgn hilang maruah atau harga-diri..suatu hari mesti akan menyesal*

2008-05-16T22:50:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was Our un-official last day with the batch. the class consists of 10 baristas,but it have to be divided into 2 bcoz today's module is 'art of espresso' where we need to learn how to make those espressos.so itz easier to teach & learn in a small class. so yesterday's class were attended by Arjun,Amru,Elaine & myself..guided by our faci,Yvonne who is a District Coffee Master(DCM). while Kristine, Xiao Yan,Sarah, Joshua, Ashraf & Hakim attend it today.

Yesterday we learned to make Hot Espresso Beverages like Caffe Latte-Caffe Mocha-Cappuccino-&Caramel Machhiato.....& we were 'close to pro' at it already...heeesss~

Arjun said "wahh HARDCORE mann!"

"where's the haha?"

the apron is so long~

Starbucks Coffee

Starbucks Chix~

The jambu Elaine~

"are u feeling sexy today?"-said Amru aka Taufik

"HARDCORE mann.."-Arjun's favourite werd.

"a drink for u,sexy"

i love diz pic~

wif Caramel Macchiato & urm,well,Taufik..haha

Yvonne gave a big grin..(k muke Taufik tak seburok gitu ehh..hehe)

Coffee Artists~

kesian Amru muke setengah~

"ehh we look like a couple lahh!"- i said to Arjun.

Mocha,made by me..*ok chocx syrup tu buat cacat*

their 1st time taking a reflection picture

it looks windy but itz not~

Arjun looks so ang-moh while i look like an Albino~

apparently my arm is too short~

so,we used Arjun's arm,but stil...

Finally,itz PERFECT~

sorry Amru & Elaine

"cum-cum lemme take"

"make silly faces can?"

im definitely gonna miss them all seyy
but may be we are all going out on diz Vesak Day since most of us will only start our in-store training only after dat public holiday.
hopefully everyone can make it.

2008-05-15T09:02:00.000-07:00

apparently,today got class..but den a few things happened.....panjang taw..begini ceritenye....

hakim suggested y not the 3 of us,Amru me & himself went for class together since we all stayed north-side. so he msged us to meet at 5pm at the LAST CABIN on the platform of wudlands Mrt. as i was getting ready to go out,Amru msged saying dat he got a last minute test & he wont be joining us go to class together. so i made plans wif hakim,5pm at wudlands mrt LAST CABIN.

i juz boarded the train at Khatib,at 4.50pm..& Hakim msged me & said "i nk kat abes siap"...i was like dlm hati "mak kau-takpe..agaknye rumah die dpn mrt je". & so i reached wudlands platform LAST CABIN at 5.04pm. & he wasnt dere yet. apparently so sway my prepaid are left wif 0 credit. & i got Hakim's msg again. diz tyme at 5.04pm he said "im now waiting 4 the bus". bayangkan lah brape lame tu kene tunggu?? laen lah klw die ckp "im inside the bus already"....wallaw ehhh..brape lame bus tu nk dtg depan die tuh? so i waited like a stupid fellar. sape2 yg wear ALL BLACK mesti i see. bcoz we need to wear uniform lah kan. so next,at 5.15m he msged me again. diz tyme he said "i reached wudlands already..where r u?". bcoz i cannot reply,so i juz ignored. & now itz already 5.24pm,satu bayang si hakim yg berbaju hitam polo starbucks pon tkde. i was like "tkkan hakim tk naek2 seyy..lmbt nah nak reach here". i'm getting pissed off already. darah btol punye UP. sumhow hati mcm tergerak nk pegy tgk kt tmpt FIRST CABIN platform & guess wattt? HE WAS DEREE!!!!! mcm nk mrh kat situ jgk seyy. but tkpe,maintain,sabar aje.

SO i approached uh & said
ME- "wahh best ehh Hakim dtg lmbt...da lame tunggu Fas ke?"...

HAKIM- "err..im soo soryyyy...." (bagus pulak dekni..tkde bagi alasan yg munasabah or yg tak bermunasabah)

ME-"kate kat last cabin??"

HAKIM- (ketok dahi while said) "ehh a'ahh lahhh..sorry lah tak perasan..confused ahh. anyway kite pegy dgn Amru taw. he's otw to MRT station.

ME- mekkk...he's frm yishun kann? belom naek train lagy kan? wah korg due same seyy!

HAKIM- alahh..soryy lahh..tkmu lah marah2......

the train came,so we juz board it. nvr mind Amru. while in the train at Bukit Gombak,Amru was already at Kranji. so we told him we will wait for him. FIRST CABIN,JURONG EAST MRT. while waiting 4 Amru, we were talking & talking & 3 trains frm Bukit Batok passed us. & we began to wonder "mane si *Taufik Batisah* ni??....star-karat sey die..". i was like *si hakim ni tak sedar pe yg die pon star-karat jgk..ade hati nk ckp org*..haha....
den Hakim called Amru & u noe wat Amru said? He's already at BUENA VISTA!!! *baek ah Amru..org ade tunggu die* GOSH we're LATE for class aLREADy! turun je Commonwealth,lincah2 sey jln....once dere,we knocked the door,taw2 je dorg da tak kasi kite masok bcoz we are HALF-AN-HOUR late. so our next "Art of Espresso" class will be on Tuesday. den we got out of the building. nowhere to go nutting to do. so we walked to the Mrt. den i suggested y not we go & eat sumwhere. initially it was at Jurong point lah,but den while in the train we decided to watch "Congkak" & we went to the Eng wah cineplex at Sunplaza. Unfortunately,the movie already started at 7.30pm & we were 20 minz late. So we grabbed the next show at 9.10pm. while waiting for movie screening,went down to eat at KFC. sempat bukak buku & blaja a bit.

The cineplex dere are so run-down seyy. the chair are so uncomfortable to sit on. & the advertisement was MUTE halfway! the screen looked like sumone covered the projecter wif a hand! dere was barely an advertisement! & Hakim was like "i want my refund sey klw mcm gini..ape seyy suare mati2" but luckily the movie started & ended well,FULL screen & FULL sound. anyway CONGKAK are not dat seram ahh..itz juz dat the sound effect power & seram to the maxx! asek terkejut aje..part the mum kene rasuk,i closed my eyes..takut sey nk tgk..Hakim can still luff at me sumore. *kurang asam da la lambat boley ketawekn org* movie ended at 10.45pm
& Hakim was like "org pegy class kite pegy tgk wayang...haha"

aft dat we took separate bus home. i sempat said to him "Kim besok jgn lmbt ehh!" & he was like "heheheheh,,,okey2..msg me"~~~

2008-05-14T01:08:00.000-07:00

U deleted me from your friends list lah kan?
delete lah delete.
as if i care wif a jerk like you.
as if i dont know wat you told them.
trying to be a "good guy" "good boy" ehh?
stop it lah ehh..

dulu siape jgk yg sebok beriye-iye giler bapak nk jadi FRIENDS konon...
"treat me as a YaQinian eQually konon...."

siape tawu golongan manusia yang apabila ;

"Bile berjanji, die memungkiri, Bile Berkata,die mendusta, Bile Beramanah,die mengkhianati"

can help to tell me itu sifat orang ape?

watever. u are still young even though u are older den me.

2008-05-13T09:10:00.000-07:00

im soo tired today..but i stil wana blog coz im super excited..

so today,went down to the starbucks outlet at Marina sQuare at 3pm for "1st impression" wif the store manager. had to wear starbucks dresscode,which were Black Polo Tee, Black pants, black shoes. there were me & Hakim as the new Barista & the store manager name OYA..& she's a MALAY,yah i know she got a funny name.lol. so she introduced us to the History & Culture of Starbucks, told us abt the jobscopes as a Barista, showed us around the store & introduced us to the staffs dere. & everyone down dere is MALAY,frm wat i saw last week's interview & just now's. dunno if deres other staffs frm other races. so at the outlet juz nw,dere were Fadly Atikah AfiQ(i tink) Aiman Nurul Taufik & sumore i cudnt remember..hehss...

and at 5pm,Me & Hakim went to our "barista class" by train at Starbucks HQ which is located at Commonwealth. Hakim was fun. we can get along well already. cepat da mesra & rapat beb. haha. so Class started at 6pm. & my classmates 4 the next 3 days were Arun (T2 transit outlet), Amru (Centrepoint outlet), Ashraf (Eastpoint outlet), Elaine (T2 transit outlet), Xiao yun & Sarah (ViVoct outlet), Joshua (Bukit panjang plaza outlet), Kristine (no idea..hee) & Fasehah & Hakim (both from Marina sQuare outlet). class was greatt & fun. me & Hakim,who sat next to each other,made alot of jokes together,& will sumtyme "luff suddenly".....heeesss.

Class ended at 10.30pm. everybody started to exchange number amongst us. so me, hakim, elaine, joshua, arjun, ashraf, & amru walked towards Commonwealth mrt together. but only me & amru who stays at Yishun while Hakim at Wdlands followed by elaine & joshua at CCK took the train together coz Arjun & Ashraf stays at the east side. while inside the train diz bunch of Baristas-to-be were all talking & luffing. aft the 2 CCK-ians alighted, Fasehah & Hakim & AMru went even crazier. mengumpat-ing the banglas & nyonyas & apekz..hahahaha....

here's sum of the picz dat i managed to took~

Gen..our faci for the night

one of the activities~

everybody wanted to scribble sumthing~

the Ladies~wif Elaine's mouth smile only

the Ladies wif partly Xiao yun's eye & Sarah's face~

without Kristine~

Without me~

1st day can take picture already~

im a Starbucks convert~

the very thick & heavy book~

snapshot of Amru wif his "mum&dad" while u can see Hakim was whispering sumting to me in the reflections.

im sitting beside TAUFIK BATISAH!~

ok,his name is AMRU...he's not Taufik,definitely~

BUT HE IS THE COUSIN OF TAUFIK...SUMPAH BEB!!~
his dad & taufik's mum are siblings~~~

ok now im done bloggin. very tired already. 2mrw got class again...weeee~~~~

2008-05-10T09:16:00.000-07:00

catched Hidayat & the rest of the RDP busking infront of TaKa at 5pm....
let the picz do the talking ehh..im tired to type uhh.. *lol*

2008-05-09T07:39:00.000-07:00

i went on a Quick Shopping today & i went alone. yup,alone. itz not like im a loner but i juz need sumtyme out on my own. so,headed down to bugis street at 5..tawaf-ed the whole street abt twice before finally deciding on diz top~~~

wanted to buy a few pieces initially,but cum to think of it,I NEED TO SAVE,MAN! those cash in my bank savings & account is getting thinner & thinner. & i have since v.seldom asking money from my parentz. itz not dat they dont give but itz juz dat i wanna try & learn to be independent. i've learned dat money doesnt fall from tree. last tyme i was like "ayah ade duit?" "ibu ade duit?" & they will juz give how much i asked for. but now,nak mintak 10 bucks pon segan beb. ntah ehhh.....

anyway aft buying the top, i bought a PINK ribbon brooch next. and took the train home at 6pm.

thankfully,itz TGIF~
so watz my plan 4 the weekend?

Saturday- going shopping again. a last minute one. wanted to buy sumthing practical for my mum. a handbag? a shoe maybe? or a bracelet? see first uhh.
after shopping,gotta head down to Orchard, to catch RhtyhmDePasion(RDP) for their busking session at 5pm infront of Takashimaya.

and datz Hidayat,in red djembe.
juz cuming down to support a friend of mine whose in the band. & anyway,i can beat too. but not as gud as them definitely. all thanx to 'dat sumone' who made me interested in djembes and percussion stuffs.

Sunday- need to wake up early in the morning for the health screening sessions for the jama'ah masjid at MuttaQin. & head down to Ali Siti Dayah's house next for the Kenduri at their house.

2008-05-08T00:30:00.000-07:00

Begitu banyak cerita
Ada suka ada duka
Cinta yang inginku tulis
Bukanlah cinta biasa

Dua keyakinan beza
Masalah pun tak sama
Ku tak ingin dia ragu
Mengapa mereka selalu bertanya

Cintaku bukan diatas kertas
Cintaku getaran yang sama
Tak perlu dipaksa
Tak perlu dicari
Kerna kuyakin ada jawabnya oh...

Andai ku bisa merubah semua
Hingga tiada orang terluka
Tapi tak mungkin
Ku tak berdaya
Hanya yakin menunggu jawapnya

Janji terikat setia
Masa merubah segala
Mungkin dia kan berlalu
Ku tak mahu mereka tertawa

Diriku hanya insan biasa
Miliki naluri yang sama
Tak ingin berpaling
Tak ingin berganti
Jiwa ku sering saja berkata

Andai ku mampu ulang semula
Ku pasti tiada yang curiga
Kasih kan hadir tiada terduga
Hanya yakin menunggu jawapan

was tuning in to Bukan Cinta Biasa & at the same time looking at those pictures of US,i mean me& him,in OUR folder,i mean me& him. the folder dat i renamed 'we malo' the title dat i derived frm OUR song sanged by amr diab. & yar, i still have dat folder in my pc. but i noe he discarded everyting already.

as i clicked from 1 pic to another, i was reminisced by those memories of it.
from
Fiza's engagement.
Our 1st pic on 2nd date.
Bro Erwan's & Sis Sarah's wedding.
Hari Raya.
Esplanade's B3 chilling out.
On a swing at Far East sQuare sitting by the fountain at nyte.
BOAT QUAY.
twice Pizza Hut dinings.
Our 1st mth,from Amk to City Hall to Suntec for Our 1st movie followed by Esplanade to Boat Quay.
Dinner b4 Meetings & Nasyid practice.
Followed by sum picctures dat he edited.

ok fyne yar i miss him. but they all said dat he got no feelings for me anymore. but here i am,still missing him...stooopid lah kann?

2008-05-05T11:14:00.000-07:00

guess things have been going on fyne for me. im happy,i really am. *but they said i am just trying to be happy*.
got myself a new phone already. a w580i,pink colour. wif my own money. ok no big deal.
new hp,new Memory Card,new Pictures,new(+old) contacts,new Memories....

just sumthing random & Very un-necessary

itz still u..wen i thought abt a sumone.
itz still u..wen i cried.
itz stil u..wen im happy.
itz stil u..wen im sick.
itz stil u..wen i cares.
itz stil u..wen i hate.
itz stil u..wen i see couples.
itz stil u..wen i see holding hands.
itz stil u..dat i will look out for weneva im out.
itz stil u..

&
i
miss
you

2008-05-03T08:22:00.000-07:00

hello dearest! as promised,here i am blogging. juz reached home abt half an hour ago. im tired. had a strained neck. 4 the 2nd tyme i watched a movie in the front row. bt datz okey. so,met him up at 6+ at dhoby ghaut station. *die sungguh CUTE*. hee. bt he looked tired coz he was from werk. & so we walked towards the Cathay. the screening started at 7pm. he bought the tickets while i bought the drinks and foods for him coz he havent had his breakfast & lunch...*soo pityyy*~

overall IRONMAN was greatt....i give 8/10..

movie ended at 9pm. we took a walk all the way towards somerset mrt instead of taking the train at dhoby ghaut which is juz right infront of the cathay. he alighted at bishan & since he's meeting his family for dinner cum supper, while i alighted at khatib. catched the bus,reached home, washed up, drank milk,,and here i am blogging~

p.s/: *keep on wondering uh who diz guy is...geeeess* (kk sungguh tak penting)

2008-05-03T01:46:00.000-07:00

have been meeting him for 3 days straight...the 1st was juz a short meet-up..& yesterday was date + dinner + jln2 + threesome(coz 1 org ni tag along halfway)..& so tonight we gonna catch ironman at the cathay.....geeeeeeessss *grin2*...will update u guys wen i reached home kayys?

ok,itz almost 5 now..gotta meet him at 6 since the show is starting at 6.30..
i havent get ready yettt!!~ goshhh..
okokok
till den..
bubbyesss..............

2008-04-25T10:21:00.000-07:00

heylow dear readers..juz came back from TTSH visited Hafidz mum who was hospitalised last week. met up wif the yaQinininz at Novena MRT ard 7 & had our maghrib at a nearby Masjid. and went to TTSH next. the gurlz were luffing & singing & screaming while on our way to the hospital. saw hafidz & his family dere. *udah lama sih nggak ketemu sama hafidz..kangen banget dey sama dia*.

aft we're done visiting his mum,went to eat at Magic Wok at Novena sQ 2. & we were the last customer dere. nearly closing tyme but we were stil luffing & eating & making jokes. 1opm-took the train home. told my parentz to fetch me up at Khatib mrt as i was lazy to take the bus & was merely wanting to save my ez-link.

while waiting 4 my parenz 4 abt close to half an hour,i saw a drama~haha..between an ah-beng and a middle-age uncle. the ah-beng kicked up such a big fuss at the control station bcoz the uncle as wat the ah-beng claimed *accidentally stepped on his leg a few tymes but only say sorry to him*. i was dere watching the whole minutes of it. the ah-beng wont stil back-out or relent even when the smrt staff tried becuming the middle-man & cool him down. he let out all kinds of vulgarities dat u cud eva imagine. but the uncle just calmed down kept Quiet while looking at the reactions & expressions made by the ah-beng to him. his shoutings get worse & everyone were stealing a glance at the scene. & 2 officer from the neighbourhood police had to be called up. * but den bile police da dtg,si ah-beng ni step menguap2 lah ape lah,,kekek seyy..td bukan maen berani pekik2 maki2*...

left the scene early coz my parentz have reached. & as they were so hungry,we went to a nearby 24-hr coffee-shop to eat,but i only have a drink. aft dat,went to my auntie's hz to fetch the chicken wings dat i ordered frm her for yaQin's special event cum BBQ at MuttaQin tonight.

reached hm ard 12..packed sum stuffs for tomorrow's special event aka BBQ aka sleepover aka Qiyamullail. and here i am blogging.

all ryte, the princess gotta tuck-in now. need to sleep early coz Fizah & Syam is picking me up at 6.3oam later. need to be at MuttaQin early coz me & Fizah are going to marinate the chicken wings & do sum preparations.

anyway..these are the replies for those tags from my sweethearts..

Pinkfreak ; hello syg! imy2!~ thanx for tagging ehh...btw MAYBE ah i'll buy no.2~ hehhss

Marrie ; hello syg *jgk*!~ really meh 2nd one tuh very.nice?~

1t ; hello my lesbian partner!~ bnyk sey u tagg me..hee..im nt rily on a tight budget uhh..lagipon yg the 3rd one tuh tk brape lawa sgt..i like slide & flip fone actually..anyway kak fiza nye oso w580i kan? i tested it juz nw tp mcm tk best uh..smooth2 want yg sedap..uhuh..im sick of Nokia uh btw...bwuehehe...thanx manyak2 ehh,,~

mrQ ; hah..ini olang..u said im *kepo* wat if i buy w960i..datz y itz not listed here..lgpon itz too expensive,,gaji tak cukop sey..hee..hmm maybe i shud consider & be a *kepo* ehh..cancan? u let me? lolx..

till now den, nytes sweets~

2008-04-25T01:19:00.000-07:00

im getting myself a new phone by next week.
my current Nokia Exprees Music have been faithfully wif me since december 2006.
da mcm mintak ampun pon..olways gimme trouble. memory card pon pakai org punyer. earpiece oso da teruk. screen calar2. it will go dead after every calls. but i dun intend to sell it. simpan buat spare.
& Sony Erricson is in. & im TORN between 3 models. help me choose one can?

w910i~the most elegant , chic & hawt...the most expensive among those 3..

w580i~shaker phone~the in-between..kinda hawt..bt not attracting enuff..priced at $388 near my neighbourhood shop..

w610i~so-s0..maybe best suitable for guys..the cheapest among 3..i can get it for below 300bucks..cheap but stil,tk menarik..i wil consider if im on a tight budget..

which one ehh?~

2008-04-21T08:09:00.000-07:00

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?,
or Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.

Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?
Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not
care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.

But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.
Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could
have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?*

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?*

*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them? *

2008-04-19T12:02:00.000-07:00

is diz really me? is diz really my own self? am i being my own self?
am i really happy with what i have now? am i really satisfied with the things dat i get now? is having A LOT of friends & acquaintance do satisfies me? is making a lot of new friends sumthing really fun? uhh yess i do admit dat we need to go out & observe & befriend. but the truth is i am just tired of people asking for my number adding me at msn or any social networking sites coz i gotta repeat the whole process again;introducing myself, likes&dislikes, wat am i doing now, my age & constant messages & phone calls & chattings. IM TIRED.

am i just pretending to be happy? am i just pretending to be ouh so bubbly & cheerful? or izit dat deep deep deep very deep down inside i am sad & discouraged & despair? currently i hate to let people know or see my sad emotions. just maybe i tend to cover it up by putting on wide smiles & grins on my face? faking my own emotions? hiding behind those bubbly face? hiding my own-self? or worse, running from reality?

2008-04-18T09:07:00.000-07:00

My-My.....what a friday....

fyi diz is going to be a long post..

early in the morning,i msged my dearest Hidayah & since we havent see each other 4 a quite a long tyme,so we decided to meet in the afternoon ryte after her sch. she waited for me at Amk interchange & since itz been a while since we last met,we both hugged so tightly infront of so many people upon seeing each other & we even wore the same cardigan...so sweet...

so we headed to MuttaQin MosQue bcoz our plan 4 the day was to meet our beloved ustad SodiQin dere since he's got a few werking days left as the YDO dere. so we called him up & said dat we wanna have lunch together wif him & he told us to wait for him 4 awhile. while waiting, one ustazah approached us & she was like "sweeties,we are having a free health check-up..do u wanna join?" so me & dayah was like "ahh okok..y not". so we did sum weight& height checks & bloodpressure test. Nasir oso joined us. after we're done wif the health check-ups,me & dayah & ustad proceeded to BanQuet & have our meals dere. Ustad called her fiancee CiQin & his mum-in-law to be, so altogether dere were 5 of us having lunch. after we're done wif eating,me ciQin her mum & dayah went around AMK central & did sum shopping. we went ard frm shops to shops testing out make-ups & blushers & perfumes..harhar...ciQin's mum is so sporting & very fun. aft dat,ciQin & her mum invited the both of us to their place coz they wanted to show us their new pet named KIKI..& itz a rabbit....~ the rabbit was so cute& adorable but i dun dare to play wif it bcoz im juz soo geli wif animals....so we hanged out at their house eating snacks & watching Hikmah~

sudddenly ciQin asked if we wanted to go Ratib at MuttaQin,& since we're super free..we said yeah y not...so waited for ciQin to change her clothes. & since hidayah was in her sch uniform,she oso wanted to go home first & change. luckily her house is just a few blocks away frm ciQin's. so we headed to Hidayah's hz & waited 4 her to change. & from her block,we actually ran all the way towards the bustop bcoz the bus were already at the traffic lite. & it was so kecoh while we ran, we were all like "cepat cepat cepatt!!" "naseb baek malam2 sey takde org nampak" "kauuu...lari ngan baju kurung seyy" "ehh da lame sey tak lari".....upon entering the bus,everyone looked at us...so paiseyyy...

so,we reached muttaQin, & saw ain her mum dere,helped dem out wif their jualan 4 awhile before attending the ratib. the ratib ends before isyak,& ciQin went home wif her fiancee,left me & dayah. & ali. so the 3 of us went ard amkhub& amkcentral & bumped into Fizah&Abg Syam but den later we parted. aft the 3 of us done wif our merayap,we get bored so we called up fizah & asked her where she is. since she said dat she's at MuttaQin, we all decided to went dere too. and dere were Fizah Abg Syam Ali Wany Ain Hidayah & myself. the gurls were so kecoh luffing so mucch.

i told my mum to pick me up since my ez-link got no more credit left. & my mum replied dat she will pick me up ard 1030+. & i was like "mek,,skrg da kol 10..sume org da siap2 nk alek". so i dgn tk malunyer ask fiza's favour to send me home since we both live in the north. & she was like "okok no sweatt". so i called my mum & informed her dat abg syam & fizah will send me home. while we were bz packing,fizah called me up i think she said sumthing like "seha go home now?" & i was like "ahh yaryar okok". so i went to the back gate & took my shoe towards the front gate. & guess wat>? i saw their car leaving...i was like "eh eh ehhhhhh....dorg da jlnnnnn..........". so i called fizah

me; kak....u left already ehhhh? nape tk tunggu kite...?

fiza; i thot u said "okok" wen i told u i da nak jalan...?? eh dear sorry2..wat a misunderstandingggg......sorry2.....

me;okok tkper itz ok,i try call my mum

fiza;dear sorry ehhh...u call ur mum ti da smpai umah u msg me..

me;okok tanx...

i tried calling my mum but she didnt even pick up...i gave up,so i called Hafidz who noes he might give me a ride,but den he was wif his gf. so i called up ahmad,but he's at home & stays at bedok..i called Najmi but he didnt pick up.....i was soo desperate to go home. in the end,hidayah lent me 1 dollar so i can take 853. & she sent me til the bustop. and a few things happened inside the bus.

1st,

i put inside 60cents,but the driver told me to show my pass & i didnt bring one. den he asked me where am i going? i said yishun. den he said the fare is $1.30. so i put in all the coins dat i have & told him.."uncle,,not enuff uhh". den he said "neh mine itz ok,juz dun forget to take the tickets,juz in case". so i thanked the driver. the bus was so packed. but managed to get a seat after 2 stops,beside a mat melayu. i was holding my hp messaging2. & I asked Q to call me. & he did but juz 4 awhile. i hunged up the fone & continue listening to my mp3. diz mat was so kepo,he actually looked at my hp screen. i juz ignored. sumhow suddenly he took out his hp & he was like "showing off his hp wif a number in it"...i was like "nmpk sah dekni nak bagi nombo die kat aku"..so i pretend konon tk nmpk pape & kept my hp inside. luckily he alighted before me & before he tapped out,he looked at me. "macam2 btol org2 ni".....

i alighted at Yishun interchange & wen i reached at the Yishun mrt control station,i try to call my mum again but she didnt pick up. so i juz leave her a msg "ibu fetch me at yishun mrt punye taxi stand. akak tunggu kt cni.dun ask me later i'll tell u the story". i dun wanna walk all the way home bcoz it is Quite Quiet dere. & while waiting 4 my mum,Q called me back. so,mengadu naseb lah dgn die..haha...and He was like "lerr knape td tak bilang siang2? if not i can drive & fetch u home"...i was like "aah seyy..i lupe yg u da boley drive".....aiyyoo..tkpelah not meant to be ..next tyme ehh/ haha...anyway i was getting worried coz itz already 11+ & my mum isnt here yet. so i get Q to help call my mum 4 me but again my mum didnt answer the fone. so Q suggested y not i juz walk & he'll accompany me,thru the fone. so i said ok & msged my mum telling her dat im already walking home & no need to fetch me. i didnt walk thru blocks but instead i walked at the main road,just to play safe.

as soon as i juz reached my block,my mum called Q's number back. so he get me to informed my mum

Q; cik Juwita eh? juz now Fasehah tried calling u but she cudnt reach u.. so i help her to call u so dat she noes dat ur hp is wif u./ im Qhairul./ she said she's already under her block/ ok welcum, *datz wat i heard frm Q*

as i reached home,my mum started to ask "td ckp fiza antar balek?" & so i had to explained to her wat actually happened. so i complained sadly uhh "ibu td kenape off hp? i called2 u many times" she's like "ibu ltk silent lahh" "Qhairul tu siape" "how did he called me?" so i said Qhairul is my fren & he helped me to call u & he's at home.

adoyyyy....at the start of the day was greatt & awesome but the end of it was so jiallat. was so fun to have met Hidayah CiQin CikSiti Wany Ain Fiza Ali Abg Syam but so sway wen desperately got no other way to go home. & the incident at bus plus mat melayu tuh. & i witnessed a fight between indians youngsters at the void deck while walking home. & Q was like "ehh i think u shud have recorded ur Friday & have it documented or filmed seyy"...haha..anyway thanx Q for the company...

What A Friday~

2008-04-16T00:08:00.000-07:00

Puteri- Disana menanti Disini menunggu (a)

part (b)
i like this part the best~

part (c)

2008-04-13T09:39:00.000-07:00

ok,lets talk about my weekend....~~since i've already quit my job last thursday,so i've been relaxing & enjoying the weekend. itz been a long tyme since i last watched tv becoz i've been werking day&nyte..mek,*rajin nahh*. so i've become a 'hamba tv' & telling myself, "no computer today" BUT, i still switch it on & wil stuck infront of the pc 4 long hours anyway. seriously i cant survive without surfing the net for even a day. tk mkn tk minum pn takpe,haaa *k lame*.

Saturday went out wif the BABES,but not all of them,sadly only Sue&Tini. itz pathetic & sad to see dat people change. i hate it wen ppl tend to 'mcm phm'. said & promised but den in the end do the opposite. pegy karaoke lah kan? abey tak taw nk ajak? boley tipu lagi ckp gi tmpt laen. da lah satu2 perangai da berubah. dun tink i dunno or i dun even care. masing2 da nak buat hal masing2 kan? kate 'i miss u' sume,tp nk patah balek satu station yg da terlepas just to see me pon tak boley? i dun need u to do that la actually,but i need to see u coz i juz miss u damn lot. get it?
i wonder...
where's atikah?
where's ayuni?
where's nani?
where's deedy?
where's zana?
where are those ppl dat i used to know?
seriously aku da tak kenal korg lagy...

anyway, the 3 babes went to t3 but dropped dere juz to singgah the toilet. since tinibabe wanted macdonald so much,so off we went to t2. after we're done wif eating& story-telling & cam-whoring,the babes sent me to the mrt station coz i gotta meet Q at Tanah Merah. was supposed to wait for him at Simei mrt to knock-off frm his werk at Changi-Simei cc actually,but he ended up being early,adoyyy i had to make him wait againn.....

so we both went to Bugis. my initial plan was to look 4 a new dolly like dress. but i changed my mind. so while waiting 4 Q to finish his asar,i went ard Bussorah street to look 4 pashmina/shawls. & i actually bought 5 of it. very nice very colourful very pretty & very cheap. thanx Q 4 choosing the colours for me. haaaa. * a designer knows best la katekan*. so frm dere we went to Bugis street & i bought a necklace dere. pusing2 den aft dat we went to Bras Basah complex bcoz he wanted to look 4 a new guitar. he left the shop wif his monyok face bcoz he was looking for a left-handed guitar since he's a lefthanded. takley lupe mcm mane rupenyer. bcoz he's sumhow disappointed, he decided to go to peninsular to try his luck. & aft the 3rd shop dat we went into,he finally found it!~ he was all like *yessaahhh daapaatt...org tu kate nnt die reserve kan*. suke lah tuh!~ aft dat we proceed to City hall mrt & went home..
*Q...penatt taw..sepanjang keluar tk dpt duduk langsung..haaa*

On Sunday,

catched the 'konsert malam sejuta selawat' wif partly yaqinianz partly my cuzzins partly ain's family. in the 1st place my family was supposed to attend it,but they back out last minute coz my parents held up wif their appointments. in the end 2 of my cuzzins followed, so i let ain's mum & bro have the 2 tickets left. the concert was very soulful. Rabbani & Hijjaz made an appearance, so were Ustad Ahmad Dahri & Ustad Harun Hassan Aktar,ouh & Ustad Sofiyan too. the concert were being held so as to comemmorate the birth of our Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h. i learnt dat we shud love our Prophet Muhammad p.b.u.h. more den anything else.
* sumhow i dun understand sum fellar ni la ehh. the song 'dia kekasih Allah' was meant for cinta kite terhadap Rasulullah,bukan cinta kite terhadap kekasih buah hati kite..stop it seyy..tk taw bace & tak taw dgr ke?*

i was just soo happy to have seen my former primary sch classmates.

anyway Q..ur heartshape is what colour? i chose White,haaaahaa...sungguh tk penting~

2008-04-08T10:25:00.000-07:00

wat is LOVE?

For all you peoplewho say, 'I love you' when you have no clue what love is exactly.
Something to ponder upon...

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart>
racing and is>
your voice caught within your chest??>-
It isn't love, it's LIKE.>>

You can't keep your eyes or hands off of her/him
- It isn't love, it's LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show her/him off??
- It isn't love, it's LUCK.

Do you want her because you know she's/he's>there??
- It isn't love, it's LONELINESS.

Are you with her/him because it's what everyone wants??>
-It isn't love, its LOYALTY.

Are you with her because she/he kissed you, or held your hand?>
- It isn't love, it's LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for her/him confessions of love,> because you don't want to hurt her/him? >
- It isn't love, it's PITY.

Do you belong to her/him because the sight of her/him makes your heart skip a beat??>
- It isn't love, it's INFATUATION.

Do you pardon her faults because you care about her/him?>
- It isn't love, it's FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell her/him every day she is the only one you think of?>
- It isn't love, it's a LIE.

Are you willing to give up all of your favorite things for her sake?>
- It isn't love, it's CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and break when she's sad?>
- Then it's LOVE.

Do you cry for her/his pain, even when she's/he's>strong?>
- Then it's LOVE.

Do her/his eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts? >
- Then it's LOVE.

Do you stay because a blinding,incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you to her/him?
- Then it's LOVE.

Do you accept her/his faults because it's a part of who she/he is?>
- Then it's LOVE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with her/him faithfully without regret?? >
- Then it's LOVE.

Would you give her/him your heart, your life, your death??>
- Then it's LOVE.

Now, if love is painful, and tortures us so, why do we love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
The answer is so simple cause it's...LOVE. It is such an addictive thing that even people who are not having it wish to experience it and share it with others as well.
Love hurts our feeling, but it's also the reason our soul heal..
But one day when u truly fall in love..remember to let the someone know.. to suffer a moment of embarrassment is better than letting your happiness fly away forever...

2008-04-08T06:06:00.000-07:00

LEONA LEWIS~better in time

2008-04-02T01:10:00.000-07:00

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And somethings breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one

My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

2008-03-30T04:26:00.000-07:00

What Hurts The Most

2008-03-25T00:51:00.000-07:00

songs stucked in my head currently
& which im SO IN LOVE wif.....
turned up to the highest volume as possible~

2008-03-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

HAPPY
21st
BIRTHDAY
AHMAD AFIF!!!!~~

itz been 3 years now...how tyme really flies ehhk...
& i need to give him his prezzie which have been pending for 3 years
dat i still keep it in my wadrobe...but dun worry tak berhabok bcoz i took care of it well...
i still have the receipt attached..haha...
well,honestly i was so crazy over him wen i was 15 back den,but now wen i cum to think of it,i juz luff it off...~i even had the song "kenangan terindah" dedicated to him....
nyehe silly me..~

2008-03-17T02:11:00.000-07:00

& finally!!~~

i've watched STEP UP 2;THE STREETS last saturday...

all thanx to Johan 4 the treat...watched it at Marina sQ...

but since the movie started at 4.45pm which was like another half an hour to go,i met up wif my dearest hidayah who was werking at John Little and headed for lunch later at LjS...

and me & him shared a meal becoz i told him i swear dat i wont be able to finish it if i eat it all alone...

& it was like the 1st tyme dat i watched a movie & have to be seated in the front row..i can say the 1st damn row bcoz the tickets are selling fast. & so,juz imagined how we have to lift up our neck infront of the big screen. sumhow in the middle of the movie...i told Johan; "u..im sleepy.." and he was like "do u want me to get u sumthing?" & i replied "nahh itz okae..i cume penat je baru balek keje"...bcoz i met him straight frm werk. overall,Step up 2 was kinda great uhh..but since itz a *dance movie*...so everything was abt dance & dance & dance...but seriously their moves are so stylish & superb.

called it a day & headed back home straight...~

2008-03-07T07:57:00.000-08:00

i shud have blogged diz before i went to jakarta..never mind anyway. last week on Thursday was my off day & so,hanged out wif Q...but itz not rily a hangout,but more of *shopping* and *jalan2*...(im talking abt *jln kaki*)..was supposed to meet him ard 2 but i reached at 2.30 bcoz i did my zuhur 1st before going out. as soon as i reached,at cthall,Q was like..."hahhh...kite subuh da sampai..." & i was like "sorry la sorry la td bus lmbt pastuh tunggu train pastuh org ramai pastuh naek escalator kene beratur pastuh pastuh",,,the same old sentence dat i will use weneva i had to make sumone wait...nyehe...for sum moments aft dat..Q suddenly asked "jadi ape perasaan anda dapat keluar dgn Q hari ni?"...i was like "Stop it sey Q...diz is not a date!!".. and Q was like "yelah org tu kan fofular kan,,asek kluar jek..hee.." & i replied by giving him a smack of my face....

so we walked to marina square & went into TopShop bcoz Q wanted to buy t-shirts for himself. so he picked 2 colours and went into the fitting room. and since ladies cannot enter the room,he had to cum out and showed me. the moment he came out,he was like "tadaa...eh kene la seyy.." & den i asked him "what size are u?" and he said "S..", i was like "My...u are so small...!!".

it feels kinda weird..i dunno y..maybe bcoz i've been used to a tall & a giant guy who is body size XXL and feet size 12...pfftt...anyway,went to mcCafe aft dat & had double choc & we were sumhow bored sitting dere so he decided to go Bugis and we actually Walked all the way dere...

i've been wanting to look for a bag and so we *tawaf* the whole bugis street. and after i finally found one,dat shop doesnt accept nets,& so we cross-over to bugis junction in search of an atm machine. but luck wasnt on my side,dat machine just couldnt accept my card for wateva reason,,so we cross-over back to bugis street again and i found another atm machine around OG..*stop fretting..penat sey patah balek*~ & i got a new bag..nyaha..

aft dat,Q 'ajak' to Bras Basah complex..he said he wanna look at arts thing..but in the end he went into a few music shops...& i saw a lot of djembes over dere...each costing above 300..mek;

i told him dat im hungry,but i said y not we went to asar 1st,& den we go & eat. so we walked AGAIN from dere to Sultan MosQue and headed to BanQuet for our lunch+dinner.

as soon as we finished our meal,we juz hanged around at the mRt station taking pictures & stuffs....

& went to muttaQin 4 meeting aft dat....~

2008-03-03T08:13:00.000-08:00

all ryte..lets blog about SATURDAY...

went out shopping wif my family & we went to peninsula plaza..

(BABES!!~~..i bought a pink skinny!!~~..nyaha..)..

after dat,went to funan digimall & treated my whole family of 5 to swensen..

we have the course meal & an earthquake...

nana's & mine..

after dinner,went to mustafa centre and head back home ard 2..

2008-02-29T06:23:00.000-08:00

hey hey heyy....
today was ok..the weather was extra hot bcoz i wore black from head to toe..haha...
went to MuttaQin to 'give out flyers' to the jama'ah doing their friday prayers dere.
sat in the office whilst the khutbah & prayers...
sumhow was so paisey wen i arrived bcoz 99.9% were all male...
& everyone sumhow gave a *look* as in *weird look*...
& today i became the *tukang lipat kain* *tukang jemur kain* simply bcoz the kains dat the guys & boys wore were wet..izit bcoz u'all are sweaty or bcoz of ur ablutions???

but on my way to AMK,saw my dearestbaby in bus 812 at my house..was so shocked to see her seyy and furthermore she's wif "boi". and we were so all over each other luffing & all inside the bus..& she told me a news, dat she just recently get together wif "boi"....i am so happy for her..at least i wont have to hear her sobbing otp abt her jerky ex. & now itz her turn to hear a *gudnews* frm me soon...haha..jk..

IMY so badly~

Just wanna share a front view of diz picture~

Ouh shuck,,watever..hmmpphh~

2008-02-27T07:59:00.000-08:00

today was my off day. was supposed to hang-out wif Azah after she's done wif her fitness session at a gym at raffles place,but as soon as i reached dere,i msged her..but she replied dat she has just started her session,so i decided not to wait for her & she said she's fyne wif it since she dont know wen it will end. & so i was alone wandering here & dere..i thought of msging or calling up just any of my friends..but luckily the 1st person dat i called answered the fone & decided to hang-out wif me eventhough itz last minute..& since dat person had just ended the class & got nuthing to do. so the person waited for me at city hall and we walked all the way to suntec and sat at the fountain of wealth,the place dat we used to went together a few years back. & we updated each other about our lifes so far,& we luffed at each other upon reminiscing the past. haha. i was still 15 while the person was 18 about 2 or 3 years ago. kenangan-kenangan...~~

& soon after dat,i treated dat person to a drink bcoz i just got my 1st pay..my 1st hard earned money...hahaha...& the rest,as they say,was history...it felt so nice to be able to catch-up wif the person whom u have lost touch wif for a few years. i can see the differences in dat person,who is more matured mentally & physically. i guess as tyme gets by,people will change for the better. i learned a lot of things today. & so the tyme shows 8+..itz tyme to go...& i got a free ride home..haha..thanx for the evening~

2008-02-26T08:37:00.000-08:00

i've been looking for diz song for a few months ago...
simply because every single words fits the situation...
however,currently,it brings no meaning to me anymore...
i just love the r&b touch..and the moves...& the guys...heee~

NLT-She said I said

Don't know where to start somethin' ain't goin' right
Feel it in my soul cuz i've tried, oh baby
Try to keep you satisfied, please don't cry
I just think we both need time
I just feel that we are in the same room
But living two worlds apart
And it's causing too much pain

(She Said) Baby can you please just stay
It ain't too late to work this thing out
(I Said) Girl this ain't easy for me

At least the truth is comin' out
(She Said) Why can't we make up like the last timeI'm just afraid to hear you say go
(I Said) Baby I'm sorry, I think it's time we let go
Baby don't leave, don't leave don't leave
Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay
I Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave
Cuz I think it's time we let go

See these teardrops fallin' from your eyes

But that don't change my mind, oh baby

Please don't make things more difficult then they gotta be

I can't take no more, this is killing me

Everytime I look at you I see more Reason for me to leave you

And it's causing me too much pain

(She Said) Baby can you please just stay

It ain't too late to work this thing out

(I Said) Girl this ain't easy for me

At least the truth is comin' out

(She Said) Why can't we make up like the last time

I'm just afraid to hear you say go

(I Said) Baby I'm sorry, I think it's time we let go

Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave

Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay

I Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave

Cuz I think it's time we let go

Baby don't leave, don't leave, don't leave

Tell me you'll stay, you'll stay, you'll stay

I Gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave

Cuz I think it's time we let go

& anyway,dat asriee dropped by at the shopfloor again..and he bought the mineral water again & paid wif a $1 coin again..and wore the same uniform again..the only different was dat he came in at around 8+..luckily i went for my break earlier..klw tak,melepas lah..haha

2008-02-25T07:08:00.000-08:00

ok,im gonna blog for the 3rd tyme today~ehee....

GoodNews & BadNews~

letz start wif the Badnews 1st,,
just now was the last day of work for Shahrum..irritating seyy...one-by-one quit..
last few days was yati,she was posted to an outlet at yishun...
& within diz week,Abigail will quit...
so now,left Karim,Jay,Lynn,Zuraidah & me...

& we have a new supervisor.kak laina was posted to another outlet,so kak ros substitute her place as Guardian is having a re-shuffling of staffs islandwide.awwww im gonna miss all these beautiful people.& just now Kak Ros,Shahrum & me luffed alot while doing closing. simply bcoz of my blurness while counting the balance money & all the settlements. & Shahrum who was supposed to help me do diz & dat ended up being blur too. bdk ni mmg sengaje ketawekan org..mentang2 lah last day die...ouh & kite sempat mengumpat psl Kak Ros jgk..haha oopss....

well,the Goodnews is~

i've been noticing dat a malay abg named "ASRIEE" have been frequenting my outlet for 3 days straight eversince i started to werk in the evening. & at each time,he will definitely buy the same thing,our home brand mineral water. & he will drop by between 5-6. haha tak taw lah klw aku perasan je or wart. & how do i know his name? i looked at the army uniform he wears everiday. alahh maybe he live nearby,maybe he buy the water bcoz itz cheap and is only for 55cents,or maybe his alasan just to see me? hahahahaha...ok gudnews ni sungguh tak penting kann....

2008-02-25T00:11:00.000-08:00

picz form the wealth seminar~

Briefing..getting ready

wif dato' dr. fadzillah kamsah

Wif kak Ain

& Again

the foods is still in my mouth

Princess & Oshin~juz look at my crown~

ok,he was looking at me..LOLX

2008-02-24T21:16:00.000-08:00

entered Fasehah Omar

what ur name means~

Your number is: 5

The characteristics of #5 are: Expansiveness, visionary, adventure, the constructive use of freedom.

The expression or destiny for #5:
The number 5 Expression endows with the wonderful characteristic of multi-talents and versatility. You can do so many things well. The tone of the number 5 is constructive freedom, and in your drive to attain this freedom, you will likely be the master of adaptability and change. You are good at presenting ideas and knowing how to approach people to get what you want. Naturally, this gives you an edge in any sort of selling game and spells easy success when it comes to working with people in most jobs. Your popularity may lead you toward some form of entertainment or amusement. Whatever you do, you are clever, analytical, and a very quick thinker.

If there is too much of the 5 energy in your makeup, you may express some the negative attitudes of the number. Your restless and impatient attitude may keep you from staying with any project for too long. Sometimes you can be rather erratic and scatter yourself and your energies. You have a hard time keeping regular office hours and maintaining any sort of a routine. You tend to react strongly if you sense that your freedom of speech or action is being impaired or restricted in any way. As clever as you are, you may have a tendency to make the same mistakes over and over again because much of your response is glib reaction rather that thoughtful application. You are in a continuous state of flux brought by constantly changing interests.

Your Soul Urge number is: 5

A Soul Urge number of 5 means:

The 5 soul urge or motivation would like to follow a life of freedom, excitement, adventure and unexpected happening. The idea of travel and freedom to roam intrigues you. You are very much the adventurer at heart. Not particularly concerned about your future or about getting ahead, you can seem superficial and unmotivated.

In a positive sense, the energies of the number 5 make you very adaptable and versatile. You have a natural resourcefulness and enthusiasm that may mark you as a progressive with a good mind and active imagination. You seem to have a natural inclination to be a pace-setter. You are attracted to the unusual and the fast paced.

You may be overly restless and impatient at times. You may dislike the routine work that you are engaged in, and tend to jump from activity to activity, without ever finishing anything. You may have difficulty with responsibility. You don't want to be tied down to a relationship, and it may be hard to commit to one person

Your Inner Dream number is: 9

An Inner Dream number of 9 means:
You dream of being creative, intellectual, and universal; the selfless humanitarian. You understand the needy and what to help them. You would love to be a person people count on for support and advice.

2008-02-24T07:01:00.000-08:00

i am damn tired.i couldnt sleep yesterday nyte,in the end i slept at 5 & was being awaken by ain's morning call at 6. have a quick shower & get ready by 0650 & waited 4 her at khatib & took the cab all the way to NTU. was assigned to be at the registration counter wif him (the black were to be at the counter while the whites were the ushers) to give out tags forms files magz booklets. im sorry i sumhow scolded u for being slow at werk.

the seminar went smoothly but sumhow i started not to feel well. i rushed to the toilet wen i felt dat sumthin is cuming out from my stomach. the moment i entered the cubicle,i throwed out immediately without even closing the door. and some female participants came out to the toilet for the 2nd tea break but luckily it was my last few bluwekz. i came out from the cubicle getting stares from the participants. one kakak even asked me repeatedly whether im ok or not. so i said "yesyes im fyne..thanx"...& to think dat she even asked diz question..."are u having gastric or are u expecting?" i was like ..."no of coz not the latter"...and she was like "ouhh so sorry.." so i washed my face & mouth & went out & sat down to rest & ain offered me her drink& massaged me & ciqin play wif my fingers & tarmizi & fadley kept asking if im ok or not & ....but dat *him* didnt even care or bother. well i dun rily mind. so i sat down & took a nap for 10minz. my whole body was totally weak.

after the whole event have ended,me fadley ain & him went to jurong point to maghrib & had our dinner & went home by train.

*sa-urid an a'alamuka an maza fi qalbii.
sa-urid an a'alamuka fa-inniy bihubbika daa-iman kasii-ran jayyi-dan
walakkin sa'arif kullul ash-ya' kal bi-ghairi mumkin.
sa'arif hunaka maa fil-huub fi qalbuka.
wal haaza la ba'saa.
li-anna sa-ardha an taqdiirullah.
walakkin sa-mawjud ismuka fil qalbii daa-iman aa-badan,insyaAllah~*

2008-02-21T23:13:00.000-08:00

i have a few VeryVeryVery awesome vidz to share..~

Islam is indeed a beautiful religion,subhanallah....
& i am practising to be a practising muslim,insyaAllah~

2008-02-20T00:08:00.000-08:00

today i'm off from work again. not due to any sickness,but itz juz one of my off days diz week. irritating taw..bcoz i really look forward in going to werk,eventhough itz kinda tiring dat u have to go bank-in and Q in the lines,but my werk gives me the oppurtunity to meet people & datz wat i love..so far no kecoh customers yet...sweet-ones,plenty...gracious,a lot...Hot-ones? hee..ade lah a handful daily...can cuci mate...lol...

derz diz one occurence wen an indian couple in their 30's walk in & the man asked for a cough syrup of diz particular brand..but we dun have it dere,so i told him itz out of stock (maen hentam je lah)...& he was like "ouh ok,,thanx..hey u noe wart,,u look CUTE u noe..". i was blushed like mad & was all like "heeee..thanx.." & his wife was like "cheeky ah u!" to her man. ;-)

& everytime pegy bank-in,mesti pegy old chang kee,,if not pon,7-eleven or cheers..coz my colleague will kirim diz & dat...haiyoh..mentang2 lah dekat...

anyway anyway..the afternoon was spent wif chatting at the msn wif kak ciqin (not dat long wif her) & kak zetty..
& kak ciqin shared me diz piece of sentences

*Dont deny her presence in diz world. itz just her existence as a disrupter between u&him bcoz she's not the problem. but itz u & him...or secara kasarnye juz treat her as a no-one,or better off like a habok yang menyebok..*

love akak&ustad..~~

&& had a quite long chat wif kak zetty...i only asked her A Question about how did u cope seeing ur ex or sumthing went out wif sumone else,,but she actually shared wif me a lot of things. about her & abg is the last tyme wen they were still in a relationship,when they broke-up,when they get engaged,& how they finally get married. itz so nice to hear stories like theirs. a tale of young love dat sumhow got tangled for 8 tymes and which finally ended up wif a marriage. and from here i can really see dat abg is & him have many things in common,in terms of personality,itz juz dat,like wart kak zetty said,"abg is is more soft-hearted..tak mcm udin". yess,true. and kak zetty gave me a "being mean,sumhow" advices. like telling me to date up richer & handsome-er guys who will pamper u juz like wat she did the last tyme..bcoz she said "girls like us really deserve it",heez~ & like *he* said,kak zetty & me have a few things in common & it all started out wif the tulang ayam..haha..ok tu tak penting...

anyway thanx kak for sharing...u made my day..really really...im all smiles now.. :-)

& also to Asri...kau buat aku terkekek kekek happy..& thanx for all ur werds yg seolah-olah mendoakan..hee~~u noe wat im talking about~

& FasIrsya,better off Fasehah & Irsyarudin are juz friends now..& im ok wif it..dun worry...~~

2008-02-19T07:35:00.000-08:00

had a funfun evening with my dear....goshh..love her so much la seyy...we are so alike...
the reason y we are so close now...waited for her at tanah merah bus-stop,,so paisey giler coz a lot of matz&minahz alight from bus...waited for like an hour...lame giler sey...but takpe,itz ok,syg punye psl...but in the end,she called & said dat she's already in the train from tampines...so i moved from the bustop & went straight to the mrt station & boarded the train in which she's already in....

so up we went to peninsula..she accompanied me to buy sumthing..aft dat,she brought me to her werkplace at marina square..& den to millenia walk & showed me the guy named "boi" whom she is infatuated wif...& she even showed me all those cuteguyz around her werkplace...sempat dear cuci mate ehh....anyway,,*boi* is veryvery cute in person,u made the gud choice dear..kite pon mcm nak ter-pikat sey td..heez~

& i decided to drop by to see AinBabe werking at guardian...was shocked to see her..super-excited,,i hugged her immediately without thinking dat she's doing her work...& wart shyda said is true..she look anorexic...poor her....& im starting to miss the rest of the babes....

ard 7+, we boarded the train at cityhall & while inside the train,we decided to hang-out at amk as we both feel like eating fries..lol stakat seyy...& as we were chatting,saw Ali & he joined us...& sum tyme after dat,Shahi joined too...but they were not for long...& decided to went home when my dear wanted to meet her "boi" again....parted at the mrt station & everyone was like staring at us wen we were hugging & saying "I LOVE YOU" loudly..heez...i miss her already seyy,am going to chat wif her later to share sum new stories..

loving her to bits~

~sweetdreams~

2008-02-18T08:05:00.000-08:00

i got diz from a multiply site in which i found a few pictures of my ex's wedding...well datz not important..the main thing is dat i just wanna share these wif the LADIES out dere..

Women have strengths that amaze men..

They bare hardship, and carry burdens,
but they hold happiness, love, and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer
when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have...

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They help those in need.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They cry at births or weddings.

yet..

They are strong when they thing there is no strength left...

They know a hug and a kiss
can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes and colors.
They'll drive,fly,walk, run, or e-mail you
to show how much they care about you.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope, and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Woman have vital things to say and everything to give.

2008-02-13T07:17:00.000-08:00

why izit dat he juz dont respect my parents anymore?
eventhough we are no longer together...why cant he at least show respect to my parents,as org yg lebey tua?

knape dulu bile nak kite sgt,nak ajak kite kluar semue,sanggop call my dad & ask for permission to bring me out...sampai boley hantar depan pintu rumah or bawah block pon jadilah..even bile he called my house wanting to talk to me, he can easily say "assalamualaikum,boley saye ckp dgn fasehah?".....

knape skrg,, bukan setakat bersalaman, tapi nak beri salam pon susah?...the least u did the last tyme was only "lambai dari jao"....itz like....what the seyy...

ape....buang anak die....buang mak bapak die skali ke?
tak suke anak die lagi...tak suke mak bapak die jugak ke?
da tanak anak die lagi...tak boley nak hormat mak bapak die lagi ke?

all the good & positive perceptions dat my parenz,especially my dad had on him are all totally lost...my parenz didnt expect to be respected,but he shud have at least taken the initiative himself...

2008-02-10T23:56:00.000-08:00

i am bored staying at home as today is my off day. so,takde keje,i read back all of my old entries of my own blog. & i suggest, U shud read it too....

2008-02-04T03:00:00.000-08:00

okey, i have no tyme to edit my new blogskins,bcoz itz still under construction. im going to be veryvery busy for this one whole week. so,temporarily will be blogging here.

sorry for the delay,har...~~

2008-02-02T13:32:00.000-08:00

hey hey hellow loves....

i've moved to a new blog....

i dun wish to use this one anymore...

i just dun want to live wif the stupid damn past of mine...

& anyway,,only readers upon invitation will get the access...

for friends,i will invite u personally....

for random readers,please kindly give me ur email & send it to

lovergurl_seha@hotmail.com

thanx,
with much LOVE~

2008-01-30T10:20:00.000-08:00

This kind of song lets u vent out watever dat is in ur heart or mind...
it rily helps me to de-stress
so Just Shout Your Lungs Out!!!!!!
Just like the way i did~~~~
Notice the *SCREAM* part..

Red Jumpsuit Apparatus-Grim Goodbye

2008-01-30T07:41:00.000-08:00

im soo soo tired today~

What i did today;

-do some *face-outs*
-stock products
-check the price tickets
-check prices of the items on the stacks
-check some products
-go banking at OCBC
-send CNY products to an outlet of Guardian at Yishun by cab
-do cashierings ( i failed 2 transactions due to miscalculation & scanning the product more than twice)
-paste CNY promotions all over the walls

supposedly i end my shift at 4,but due to the loads of works & not enough manpower,so i knocked off at 6...

aft dat went straight to ciqin's house..but before dat,dropped by at AmkHub's ntuc to buy kinder bueno for the ladies. i prayed so hard so as not to bump dere coz i know he start his work at 5 but URGH!~ as i returned from ntuc ,i saw the trolley boys at the escalator while on my way to macdonalds...& obviously he's dere..so i made a de-tour & went to B1 instead. he acted as if he never knew me. he acted dumb when his colleagues were like shouting "FASEHAH-FASEHAH" right from far...but yar,watever..i dun even mind. because i will always remember what he said to our friend -"i dun want to be with her anymore"...& i will always hold on to that.

&&&...i just hate going to ciqin's house..not becoz i hate her..but becoz it will only bring bad memories to me. bcoz dere was once last year when najwa's singing practice was conducted at ciqin's house. & he sent me there right until the staricase. & he picked me up at AmkHub. haiysss...watever~

&&& sekali lagi,saye ingin merosakkan rambot saye buat kali ke sepuloh..haha..i've already surveyed the hair colour product in my store..& im having reddish orangish in mind..so nmpk lebey *arab* & more dramatic..haha tak penting kan.. bukannye nak tunjok sape seyy...satisfy ourselve pon ok pe..perasan sendiri...ok per,*body confidence*...lol...

anyway,im werking again tomorrow,,wif Shahrum~~ he's in the morning shift while im in the mid-day shift..im sure tomorrow is gonna be VERY busy coz stocks normally arrive on every Tuesday&Thursday. pegy banking lagi...confirm penat seyy..ok lah..gotta tuck in. princess going to sleep......

2008-01-29T17:24:00.000-08:00

ok,finally a song that really relates to me..
as in,if this song is dedicated by Him-to-Me..
den,it would be perfect~
itz true..we shud let it burn~

i'll just go with the flow~
ape nak jadi,jadi lah...
because

Usaha - Done~
Doa - Done~
so,i just left wif Tawakkal~

[ Intro ]
Girl, understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is
that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to
let it go now than hold on
and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[ Verse 1 ]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other
things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[ Chorus ]
When your feeling ain't the same and
your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go
cuz the party ain't jumpin'
like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best
for you except but you
Hate the thought of her
being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[ Verse 2 ]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
[ Lyrics found at www.mp3lyrics.org/lg ]
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

[ Chorus ]
When your feeling ain't the same and
your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go
cuz the party ain't jumpin'
like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let
it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best
for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her
being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[ Bridge ]
I'm twisted cuz one side of
me is tellin' me that I need
to move on
On the other side I wanna break
down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of
me is tellin' me that I need
to move on
On the other side I wanna
break down and cry (yeah)

[ Breakdown ]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[ Chorus ]
When your feeling ain't the same and
your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go
cuz the party ain't jumpin'
like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best
for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her
being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

2008-01-29T00:46:00.000-08:00

Don’t Wanna try, don’t wanna try( try)
Don’t wanna try no more( try no more)
Don’t wanna try, don’t wanna try, don’t wanna try no more (don’t wanna try no more)ooh

I cant believe you had the nerve to say the things you said
They hurt so bad that they ended our Relationship
I cant believe it four years gone down the drain
How I wished things woulda happened so differently
I tried to say this many times but still you couldn’t see
You kept insisting, and resisting that you would not fall again

[Chorus]
And now u trying to tell me that you're sorry and you're trying to come back home
You're telling me you really need me crying, begging, both knees are on the floor
But Baby I.…
Don’t wanna try, Don’t wanna try, Don’t wanna try no more
You keep insisting when u know our love is out the door
Don’t wanna try, Don’t wanna try cause all we do is fight
And say the things that hurt you bad to where we both begin to cry
Don’t wanna try, Don’t wanna try I ‘bout just had enough
Its been a rough road baby just let it go
Don’t wanna try, Don’t wanna try, Don’t wanna try no more
Tell me what‘s the use of holding on when all we do is hurt our love

You and I had many conversations on the telephone
Talks about one day we having a place of our own
Wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
But all of that just seems so Far away from me
Had to wake up, face reality
It all just seemed to good to be true
After all you put me through

(Chorus)

Don’t Wanna try, don’t wanna try( try)
Don’t wanna try no more( try no more)
Don’t wanna try, don’t wanna try (try) oh oh (oh oh )
Don’t wanna try, don’t wanna try (try), don’t wanna try no more (don’t wanna try no more)
Don’t wanna try, don’t wanna try, don’t wanna try no more (try no more)(try no more) oh oh

*ouhhkayy..im so bored staying at home till i blogged for twice in a day...anyway..im soo into listening songs from Frankie J. i just love his voice & his kinda music. urm, but i dunno if diz songs fits the situation dat i've went thru. maybe partly yes,partly no. just hope u all enjoy diz*

2008-01-28T22:32:00.000-08:00

today is my off day~ boring sey dudok rumah..bangon,mkn,do housewrk,surf the net,tgk tv smpai mlm,talked on the fone smpai pagi,den tido~ boring kann??~
but itz okay,i'll be working tomorrow. my shift will start at 12-4. & after maghrib got nasyid practice,,yeahh...da lame tak nyanyi betol2..& engage in all girls affair..no guys,cume ade ustad as the advisor..& most importantly,takde si dektuh...so,no need to fret...

& aniway...this is to u...im not being sarcastic, not being hateful, not being vengeful...

Nak carik yg sumone *PURRFFEECCTT* konon..datz the problem wif guys nowadays..nak perempuan yg baek2..tp diri sendiri tak betol..abey biler da dapat nanti in the end blame the girl for watever mistakes or faults..well my advice is,btol kan lah diri sendiri tuh dulu..bile insyaAllah iman da okey, da *PURRFEECCTT*, barulah awak layak to deserve sumone who is *PURRFECCTT*...u see, setiap lelaki yg baek akan mendapat perempuan yg baik....& jgn ever repeat ur past mistakes....haiyyss...selame ni, kite cube untok jadi perfect utk die, but he just never & couldnt see all that....datz y i wonder guys just dont apprecciate their girlfriends...

kate *not ready for all these things yet*..tapi kenape nak searching?? like u said,,u will wait smpai satu hari nanti after ur studies & watsoever da complete..tp ni ckp laen pulak..alahh tu semue alasan & nak buat sebab je kan?..u think i dunno u? u think i dunno whatz behind those walls? ..*bleagh*...tak paham..tak paham...

& many out dere keep wondering how & why i can stay wif him for quite a long tyme..well my answer is * i was just Blind & VERY stupid * back then....

2008-01-28T05:20:00.000-08:00

1st day of work,delightments~

reported to work at 12pm. There was Shahrum & Kelvin whose in the morning shift. so Shahrum guided & showed me around the store. Not much work for part-tymers. just some arrangements of products need to be done, and they call dat *face-ups*. attending to customers was ok lah..so far havent met any rowdy or fussy customers yet. as i wasnt in uniform yet,there's diz one customer who turned her back & walked away when i said "yes ma'am how can i help u?"..haha...

the 1st 2 hours was a bit bored,not much to do. so ended up talking & talking wif Shahrum. Kelvin was a bit Quiet at first. but in the end he approached me & started a conversation. Shahrum was the outgoing type. He *offered* me a candy. i didnt realised it was the candy that can turn ur teeth&tongue into colours after i looked at his mouth when he was talikng to me. *FRET* sengaje taw bdk ni..takpe,kasi chan..i was praying dat my teeth wont turn out dat way.
once,i was checking to my phone & realised the reception bar was going up & down..& shahrum was like "ah msg sape tuh? matae ehh?"..i was like .."HECK,,no matae seyy..im juz checking my phone..sini takde reception eh?"..& he was like.."takde reception ke atwpon bz msg2..haha..". i was like.."kepo ehh..i didnt slide up my phone..see,where got msging?". lol..maybe he was just trying to crack sum jokes yg oops sungguh tak menjadi..haha..takper..

& another colleague, yati, joined at 2. at first i thot she was a snob. but she's a BIG NO. she's pleasant, cute & very peramah. and Kelvin said yati is very nice. she asked me to go to the OCBC bank to deposit yesterday's earnings & i actually brought $1852 wif me dere. btol punye pegang beb,,klw apape kite yg kene nanti. & when i returned from the bank, Shahrum & Kelvin have already ended their shift at 3, so left me & yati. i bought for us snacks from Old chang kee & juices from Cheers while on my way back. not so many customers just now, so we juz talked & talked. & yati handed me that ORANGE uniform. the 1st tyme ever i wore sumthing orange..haha...

timecheck, 4 pm..time for me to knock off & head back home...1st day was fun..wif beautiful ppl & frendly colleagues~ looking forward to go to work again...

2008-01-27T01:35:00.000-08:00

im very tired & sleepy. didnt sleep for the past 2 days. i spent the midnite & early morning wif hidayah. at first we chatted over at the msn, she was feeling down because her ex have "moved on" and is now wif a girl who was his *scandal*. we began sharing songs of overcoming "break-ups" & songs dat relates to guys being jerks & songs dat tells girls to be "damn strong". and aft dat we spent 3 hours hogging on the phone sharing our plights, swearing guys (ok datz so not me,but yar situation makes me do so), thinking abt y guys juz dont apprecciate wat their girlfriend have did so much for them, and some girls stufss and yada yada yada... talked to her till wee of the morning and we decided not to sleep becoz i have a meeting later at 10 and she has to work at 11.

& i got a surprise just now. my auntie whom i call "mak ude" works at the cheers convenience store at Amk hub,the one opposite Macdonald's. i was all like "mak ude keje sini??". damn shocked seyy. i was on my way to MuttaQin & decided to drop by cheers to buy HL milk, and didnt expect her to work dere, at AMK....~~AMK hub~~ bleaghh~~ nmpknye i cannot lari dari AMK eventhough im trying to distance myself from dere...
(AMK will be like a *benci-benci,sayang-sayang* affair)

ouhh & aniway, tomorrow is gonna be my 1st day of work at Guardian Pharmacy. will have to report to work at 12. i've been rilly looking forward for this,apart from the "eagerness" to start schooling soon. it can at least help my mind from thinking too much & keep me busy. ok lah,nak mkn & pastuh nak tido..mlm nak tgk tv..& talk on the fone lg...besok keje...hahahaha....

2008-01-25T19:42:00.000-08:00

how will u feel if one day sumone who loved u,& sumone whom u rily love..told u that he has no more feelings for u ?

how will u feel when u remembered about those tymes wen he begged to u, telling you dat he needed u, telling u dat he's afraid of losing u..but in the end he was the one who changed?

how will u feel aft a few months of being wif him,can u forget about those memories easily?

how will u feel wen u keep repeating the scene when he hold ur hand very tight to show dat he dun want u to let dat grip go..?

how will u feel wen your feelings were being toyed?

how will u feel wen u've never liked him,but as tyme goes by,u takes up courage to start liking him & loving him & gave him chances to let u be his?

how will u feel wen he didnt seem to apprecciate the small things dat u did to him,just to him?

how will u feel when one day he just wants to treat each other as friends?

how will u feel when the next day he said a different thing?

how will u feel when people keep telling you dat the both of u looked perfectly together?

how will u feel when people keep on telling you dat they really wants to see the both of u be back together?

how will u feel when the 1 year annivessary between the both of u is so near but it seems so impossible?

how will u feel when u havent stopped crying even after a month he left u?

how will u feel when u will still be seeing him wether u like it or not?

how will u feel when u can still remember when he whispered to ur ear "Dear,I Love You"..?

how will u feel when u steal a glance to look at him without anyone noticing,because u juz cannot stare at his face anymore like wat u used to do?

how will u feel when up till now,he's the only guy that u find gorgeous,and silently praising his physical?

how will u feel when u still see him using the wallet that u bought for him?

how will u feel when he came out from the room and u smelt the perfume dat u bought for him?

how will u feel when he is not even moved by watever dat u are feeling,watever dat u've said?

how will u feel when some people have been telling you to just forget about him coz itz all hopeless now?

how will u feel when what he wants is not what u want,and what u want is not what he wants?

how will u feel when you are still hoping but he really Already CALL IT QUITS?

how will u feel when u have ever gave him chances for 4 tymes but he just cannot give u a single chance?

how will u feel?

tell me.....

how will u feel?

2008-01-24T05:01:00.000-08:00

**..:fasehah:..** *u told me to forget you** [well i will] says:
u got it wrong..

**..:fasehah:..** *u told me to forget you** [well i will] says:
salah ke klw kite tanak ckp pon...

**..:fasehah:..** *u told me to forget you** [well i will] says:
itz up to me if i want it to be known or nt

>>Prinze of prinze<
haiz...

>>Prinze of prinze<
i'm been treating u as a fren...

>>Prinze of prinze<
takpe...

>>Prinze of prinze<
i swallow that...

>>Prinze of prinze<
i just need your respect...

**..:fasehah:..** *u told me to forget you** [well i will] says:
i dun nid anything

>>Prinze of prinze<
dont u get it..

>>Prinze of prinze<

we need to work properly to get things done...
>>Prinze of prinze<

**..:fasehah:..** *u told me to forget you** [well i will] says:
as in?

>>Prinze of prinze<
i'm talking about yaqin stufff...

>>Prinze of prinze<
how can we work if u treat me this way...

>>Prinze of prinze<
taking me as "who the hell are u"...

>>Prinze of prinze<
fine...

>>Prinze of prinze<
u want it to be this way...

>>Prinze of prinze<
go ahead....

>>Prinze of prinze<
but remember,dont push me in terms of respect...

>>Prinze of prinze<
alright....RESPECT...

**..:fasehah:..** *u told me to forget you** [well i will] says:
u said u like us wen were being frenz as in more den frenz but not yet together?

**..:fasehah:..** *u told me to forget you** [well i will] says:
was dat wat u meant

>>Prinze of prinze<
like we were before...

>>Prinze of prinze<
from the veryfirst time we met...

**..:fasehah:..** *u told me to forget you** [well i will] says:
so izit like having sumone special in mind or watsoeva ?

>>Prinze of prinze<
itu terpulang la...

>>Prinze of prinze<
but all i can say is i'm treating everyone...including u the same way...
**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
im just totally speechless

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
u remember abt y i rily dun want a r'ship in the very 1st place wen kite baru knal..?

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
im sure u do?

>>Prinze of prinze<
like i said...its my fault asking for a relationship in the first place..

>>Prinze of prinze<
but even if we go on...after reading abg wan's email....that gives me a knock on my head...

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
& i was rily happy wen were being lovers the last time

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
& until u decided us to be in a r'ship..

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
there we started to argue..

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
& i guess datz where i started to become so demanding

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
maybe i was expecting u to be A BOYFRIEND

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i dun nid a r'ship

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i was happy wif the way we were b4

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
having sumone in mind but we e where we stands

>>Prinze of prinze<
its true....

>>Prinze of prinze<
but even den....can u be with the yaqinians together..???

>>Prinze of prinze<
instead of being berdua-duaan..??

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i've told myself

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
if i cant bear wif the agony or watsoeva...

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i can go well wif the yaqins but not wen r around..

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i've told myslef klw i cant bear wif diz nymore,,i will back off frm yaqin

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
let them say wateva they want coz yg mengalami is me..

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
once everything is done..i might consider

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
dorg can give me all sorts of advices but itz me yg bearing wif it

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
itz me yg make the decision

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
but 4 now im not making any yet

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i still yaqin but sumhow it changed bcoz of u

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i lost interest bcoz u are dere

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i dun hate them..i dun despise them

>>Prinze of prinze<
i seriously dont mind making the way we were just like we first met...

>>Prinze of prinze<
do u remember sumting...

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
ape die

>>Prinze of prinze<
u ever said....

>>Prinze of prinze<
kalau orang dah masuk relationship...
confirm tak kekal nye...
and i actually dont belive that...i do...but not so into it...

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
urm yar i remember saying dat wen u were giving me hints bile kite baru knal

>>Prinze of prinze<
see..
those are the memories yang i treasure...
not after we got into relationship....

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
sayang..

**..:fasehah:..** *back off? shud i?* says:
i miss our old days

>>Prinze of prinze<
me too..

--------the rest part have been removed,,we'll juz keep it to ourself---------
*datz the last nice conversation dat i had wif him thru the msn*

where's all ur werds? where's all ur promises? u changed ur mind just the next day..u know i was hurt by wat u did...but u juz didnt care..u actually gave me hope wen u said u wanted us to be like before..but y did u say the other way round the next day?? why dear? u even have the cheek to say that u dun want us to have any feelings towards each other....why dear?? just ape dosa i pd u?

& one day wen u told me dat u're seeing sumone new..wat do u tink i felt? yes u gave me the reason dat u just wanted to get to know more people..but y must it be a girl? A GIRL? & wen i called u aft midnite for a few tymes,y cant u at least pick-it up,,or give me a miss call or at least msg me? fyne u said u are tired & need sum rest,& have been late for classes,fyne i tolerated. but y izit possible for u to talk to her everyday AFTER MIDNITE without fail? u gave excuses to me but not to her..~~ kenape i dipanggil "tak betol" biler i called u at 1..tp klw bebual ngn die at 3,"betol" sgt lah tuh??

& abt the msg u sent me td, just watz ur motive by doing dat? by saying "y not the 3 of us jadi frenz??" Heloo Irsyarudin Shah Salleh..mane awk letak hati& perasaan awk? awk ni bukan manusia ke? awk taw tak kite da cukop sabar dgn ape yg awk da buat pd kite? awk ingat kite suke bbl ngn die? awk igt kite bbl ngn die tuh kite takde rase apape? kite tak rase geram? hurt? painful? saket hati? but im not gonna hate her,itz u who i hate. ouh so IF the 3 of us jadi frenz or watsoeva,,awk igt kite suke lah tgk korg bermesra depan mate kite? heyy c'mon lahh...diz is not the 1st time things like diz happened..but itz the 1st tyme dat A girl is invloved...

juz who am i to u all this while? as if i was never a Big Part in ur life? as if u never likes me..as if u never have feelings for me..as if u never loves me..as if we never went thru so much..as if things never happened between us..as if no one knew abt Irsyarudin& Fasehah...as if people never said dat we looked "perfectly together"...as if i wasnt the girl who are willing to give u her time....bleagh wartever.....im tired of being patient...im tired of being hurt...im tired of bearing wif the pain.....wen i am just abt to get on wif a new life,out of a sudden u sent me dat painful & very hurtful message.....

-----haiiysss----

i really want us to be back together..
& hanye itu sahaje..
i didnt ask for a relationship
i didnt want any commitments from u
i just want us to be like before
just simply having feelings for each other
me being a part of ur life
u being a part of my life
just like before wen we 1st met
but u dont have to worry anymore
i have stop hoping
i noe u dun have feelings for me anymore
datz okay
i'll have to move on..

2008-01-24T00:34:00.000-08:00

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong

Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore... Anymore

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
There are hardly tears alive

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
There are hardly tears alive

2008-01-22T05:47:00.000-08:00

okey i decided to blog again for today. can i blog in a mixed of English,Malay,Arabic,Spanish,Mandarin?? hehe...well,im linguistic,so in LOVE wif languages..okey,lets be serious..

i felt so lonely juz now wen Hafidz went home..got no-one to talk kcw me,no-one to listen to my agonies..well i have my dad to confide in but obviously itz not gonna be the same. sumtymes itz gud to have frenz who are willing to lend u a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on, a hug to give comfort, a few pats on the shoulder & so on..but itz not just hafidz,to name a few....

Anyway,i received a msg from my Ex dat goes "fasehah u tc..im going away 4 3 weeks coz of NS..u be happy kay..". i was like "huhh?? y must he tell me all diz? izit necessary 4 me to know?",, so i juz ignored it...maybe he still cant get over me? maybe he still cant seem to forget me? maybe he still loves me? maybe bcoz i was his 1st LOVE? the girl with whom he tasted the sweetness & sourness of being in LOVE for the 1st tyme? OMG riffy... i cant believe wat i have done to u...i actually left such a wonderful,good-mannered,faithful,never-once-hurted-me for a guy whom i thought could make me happy by giving me luffs & smiles everyday. whom i was very happy with but in the end dampens me me & made me went sorrow, made me cried out bucket of tears,made me swear wen i actually dont,made me punched,made me feel like slapping the face,made me think of any negatives dat ever existed...

i cant believe i was so stupid, so naive. i shud have juz stayed wif my 'pendirian' right from the 1st day dat i knew him, which was *i dun really trust people easily,especially guys....& i dun believe in r'ship coz i noe itz not going to last*. but itz too late for regrets now. things already happened. i was the one one who let him to likes me where in the 1st palce i was really meluat wif him, well, sort of flirtish,he was. i was the one who said "yes" to that 1st date. if i hadnt entertained him,it wudn't dragged for 9 mths. pfffffftttttt!!!~~

-Whart-A-Big-Regret-

well, now he already have sumone *new*, sumone to talk to late at nyte, sumone to tell him *bedtyme stories* or watsoever..simply said "my replacement". hmm biaselah,klw ade bende yg baru,mestilah bende yg lame akan dibuang kan? psl bende yg lame tuh da tak membahagiakan die lagi. da tak boley utk diadekan *perasaan* lagi. just like wen u've always ate rice but suddenly u juz decided to have a change & go for sumthing new bcoz u are already bored wif the old one. life is like dat. everybody tends to do that. like the saying goes *what goes around comes around*. maybe bcoz i used to played diz trick on sumone, & in the end sumone else played diz trick on me back. im already tired wif this 'vicious cycle'.

from now on,ape nak jadi,jadi lah.....

& anyway im moving to a new blog...soon.....

2008-01-22T01:52:00.000-08:00

yeayyyy!!!~~

i can finally blog faithfully~~thanx to Hafidz for painstakingly cuming down to my house & helped me *warteva he did* to my pc...& he actually shed his blood twice. Once,bcoz he accidentally 'langgar' a sharp object under my desktop. Twice, when i throw his thumbdrive down the window & i forgot to close the cap. awwwcch...aniway thanx bro..u've always been dere during my difficult tymes...

hmmm....wart shud i blog abt? i just have no idea...maybe tonight i will....just maybe....

2008-01-15T04:08:00.000-08:00

i am juz still so weak...itz been a month but im still like diz....sorry for making u guyz waiting for my updates...my pc crashed,my life tumbles up& down,my mood swings,my tastebuds gone,my happiness stays only for awhile,my sadness seems to stay forever....

every 14th in each month will always be remembered,
14th of march 2007,
datz wen we 1st met

14th of december 2007,
datz wen we broke-up

14th of january 2008,
wen we meet for the very last tyme together

14th of february,
His birthday

14th of march 2008,
our supposed a year of being together

nothing much to update..
juz wanna say i still do love him..
like he said 'things wudn't be like diz if i hadnt changed'
i really regret...
how i wish we will be back together...
but im going to stop hoping..
i noe i cant bring his love back, no matter wat i do no matter wat i say..
as i already returned his jacket back,dere will be nothing of him to accompany to sleep,
1st thing i do and reach for wen im sad,wen i cry,wen i feel like shouting,wen i feel like missing him,wen im hurt is His Jacket...

&& it rily hurtz wen he said to me "if u look at my friendster,u will noe dat im seeing sumone"
only God knows how i felt at dat very moment...

in my mind,dere is only one thing & 1 question dat has been staying dere...
*y does he have to like me , love me in the 1st place...and after my feelings,my love developed so strongly,i was left..wif the reason "maybe being friends is better"..yes i am trying & already seeing the good things behind it...but i am juz not ready to let go..& to treat him just like "a friend" & it hurtz wen he juz wanna see me as 'a friend'......

i have been hearing a lot of advices...sum told me to juz let go & forget evrything...sum told me to juz ignore dat kind of guy...sum told me to juz continue doing wat i think is right..sum told me to juz keep contacting him like before who knows one day he might juz realised wat he did.......but.....haiyyyssss.....i wont be bothered if he dun want us to be like before as in "together but not an item".....but,,a part of me is saying yes, a part of me is saying no......

i love him,i still do.....if only he would say thanx for loving him....but i dun really need a thanx..

2007-12-28T02:13:00.000-08:00

going away for 3 days to KL..holiday with family..

i love y'all....

& i still love you,dear

2007-12-18T07:57:00.000-08:00

The last two days was spent wif just sitting at home doing houseworks, eat, watched tv, surfed the net for hours..and talked on the phone for hours too...yeah....

Life is just so great when you realised that there are so many ppl out there who cares for you and are willing to be there for you during your difficult tymes and make you luff so hard when u've been crying so hard..

aniway those are just a few updates abt my life for the past few days;;

but what i need to tell to myself is;;;

I AM A STRONG GURL & IM LEADING A VeryVery HAPPY LIFE NOW....
I WON'T LET ANYTHING BOTHERS ME & MAKE ME GO DOWN
AND BEING SUCH A CRY-BABY....
I AM GOING TO STOP CRYING BCOZ ITZ JUST POINTLESS SOBBING OVER POINTLESS PPL & POINTLESS STUFFS.....
& IF HE DOESNT LOVE ME, DERE'S MANY OUT DERE WHO WILL...

my family my friends my babes & that GoodFriend of mine...
they've been great...i realised that i don't need 'sumone special' becoz i already have alot of 'special people' out there....

aniway,for a start, i already have plans for tomorrow but im not sure yet with whom, where, what...but im sure i will update you readers aniway....

last but not least,, i juz wanna say,,

*hey y'all letz be happy & throw all those negatives that can make you go down!*

2007-12-17T06:10:00.000-08:00

Vagetoz - Saat Kau Pergi

Saat kau pergi
Berlinanglah air mataku
Betapa cinta ku rasakan
Kebahagiaan itu
Kini lenyaplah sudah

Tak pernah ku inginkan
Perpisahan ini terjadi
Ku hanya bisa merelakan
Jika memang kau fikir
Ini lah yang terbaik

Tak perlu kau beri alasan
Mengapa kau ingin pergi meninggalkan diriku
Karena ku yakin mungkin semuanya itu bisa
Membuatmu bahagia

Sepenuhnya ku menyadari
Bahwa cinta itu tak mesti harus memiliki
Namun ku akan terus selalu menyayangimu
Setulusnya hati
Tak pernah ku inginkan
Perpisahan ini terjadi
Betapa cinta ku rasakan
Kebahagiaan itu
Kini lenyaplah sudah
Saat kau pergi
Berlinanglah air mataku

*credits to Amalina*

2007-12-16T21:01:00.000-08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the jacket you left they lie on my floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe,
I need to feel you here with me

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

2007-12-16T08:12:00.000-08:00

and we both have broke-up...on our 9 mths annivessary..
itz too complicated to tell you all the reasons here...
but he really seems VERY SERIOUS this time...
eventhough itz rily painful,hurtful...
but i'm learning to swallow it...
bit by bit...

and eventhough i haven't stop crying...
i'm sure that one day i won't stop luffing...
the truth is,i just can't bear to let him go...
i've been loving him since our 1st date...

but if datz what he really wants...
if datz wart makes him really happy...
there's nothing that i can do but to just pray 4 him...

i noe dat i've been a big headache to him since i drastically changed for the bad..

To Irsyarudin Shah Salleh;

im sorry for putting a high expectation on u...
im sorry for demanding this and that from u...
im sorry for saying out things dat have hurted u...
im sorry for some remarks and comments dat i've made..
im sorry coz u can't expect me to change for the good over the nyte...

but just to tell you,i'm feeling so regretful...for my own attitude...i juz hope we can work things out,again...but i'm juz putting on a fat hope..i noe u won't come back..i noe u won't change ur mind...

i still love u dear..i still do..

2007-12-15T03:05:00.000-08:00

14th december;

had a funfunfun outing with the babes & nadzirah...

the theme was 'blackpynk' or 'whitepynk' but sum turned up in diff colour. i've been missing them soo badly la seyy. the night before,i msged each and everyone of my classmates but instead,only 7 turned up out of the 20 frm the class..but still, we had so much fun...so much laughters and taking pictures....

1st, we hang out at the McCafe infront of the shaw house while waiting for Atikah & NaniS. Thought of having lucnh dere but i suggested y not we we eat our meals at FarEast. and so, we ordered cokes , doublechocolates, iced caramel and large fries...proceeded to FarEast next to have lunch....

ard 4+, took the train to cityhall mrt and walked all the way to esplanade.....and we watched a group of primary sch students singing out the christmas carol..as we were watching the show,we noticed an auntie swinging happily to the tunes....

*check diz out*

sorry for the poor quality of the vid & the constant shaking of it...i juz can't stop luffing so datz the reason why ;-)

2007-12-13T08:04:00.000-08:00

As i was crying,,,he whispered to my ear

"i still love you,dear........"

and left...

2007-12-12T05:35:00.000-08:00

The Last Something That Meant Anything- MayDay Parade

Well I thought that we could sit around and, talk for hours
About things I couldn't say to you
And things that we could never do and,
This conversation has had no face
When the words take days you can re-write and erase anything

You know my heart (so tell me all thats needed, cause i don't really want this)
Knows all this

And I'll borrow words from all my favourite paragraphs
To write about all of these faded things
We hope would mean the most to me
And
Each line is sent i have found a new pages of hope for the days when i fell like I've lost
Everything

You know my heart (so tell me all thats needed, cause i don't really want this)
Knows all these lines (cause my jealous heart really can't take that)
So I'll sing this song for everyone thats come out lost

But, I'll be ok (Is that what you want me to say)
It's called breakup
Cause it's broken
But I'll be ok (is that what you want me to say)
It's called breakup
Cause it's broken

I'll be ok
Is that what you want me to say
It's called Breakup
Cause it's broken

I'll be ok, is that what you want me to say
Cause it's broken
And well, try so bad to tell me that you
Make it that you're sorry and
the Lines we said
Never meant the words we meant
Cause it's broken
Every kiss that you could ever mean
The everything that takes you back
The chocolate, rose, the kisses
That like chasing through your misses

I'll be ok
Is that what you want me to say
It's called Breakup
Cause it's broken

Well I thought that we could sit around and, talk for hours
About things I couldn't say to you
And things that we could never do

* i am not talking about breaking-up or wanting one..no definitely not..i just still love him...and i'm sorry for the changes in my attitude or juz simply the changed me.....and to everyone out dere who cares, just tell me if u don't feel good or sensed something wrong about me..i will really apprecciate it...u don't really have to go to him in the 1st place...*

2007-12-08T20:21:00.000-08:00

awwww !!!!! i rily miss this song !!! havent heard it for like 6 mths? haha....eventhough it have no relations between me & him, but i fall in love with it the moment when he 1st played this song while we were on our 1st date at boat quay...that was like close to 9 months back...

SWEET MEMORIES~~

2007-12-05T07:47:00.000-08:00

i've been feeling *i dun noe how to describe* about this relationship. i no longer listen to Beyonce's dangerously in love, no longer listen to Amr diab's wa malau, no longer feels "aaahhhhhhhh" if i happen to came across those songs of US. literally, the word 'flat' shud be considered.

9 months of LovePassion, i can say that it has been thinning,rapidly. i dun feel 'estatic' or 'rily looking forward' to meet him or wen we go out, just like just now......

i am sorry dear, in case this hurts u, but i just don't want to lie to myself, and moreover to u...
please show me that you care about me, not just care about this relationship....
i know we have to & must change.....but i just missed you.....

so plz dear don't let me go away and find a relief who i feel can care about me more than u do....i rily hope that won't happen...

*anyway,he didn't choose my poster that i did wif Q as the 'official poster' for the MovieMarathon. My intention was just to play a part for his event....but yar..looks like itz a waste...im sorry Q... *

2007-12-03T07:59:00.000-08:00

was blog-hopping and saw skazeisk's webbie...

and sorry! i stole ur pictures!~ hee;
u took alot of irsya's face....i just can't resist..~~

from left-right; his "adik",HIM,his mama,his baba

he just love burgers; (eeyuw! baju KAPPA!)

when eating burgers,i will only take the patty while he get the bread..talk of bullying? YEAH;

THAT barber is to blame...

his big-breakfast...

die ni memang....mane2 pon boley lepak~~

.
.
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and i'm missing him
.
.
.
the last time i saw him was last monday when i came down to his werkplace from an appointment with kak zetty to surprised him and bought for him an Adidas wallet which he've been eyeing for......and separated for about 4 days bcoz of holidays to KL...but insya-Allah seeing him this Wednesday.....aniway,,,,

awcchh....i LOVE that look......

and who says that i'm a flirt??
i simply LOVE my own boyfriend..........

2007-12-03T07:09:00.000-08:00

HELLO *neutral version 2* !!!~~

there is only a guy named IRSYARUDIN SHAH that i love....

and Q is just a good friend of mine....and my boyfriend is very aware of that...
i know how to draw the lines....yess i do love Q..but as a friend....just like how i love my friends & my babes...i didn't even try to be a flirt....why did u have to be so emotiOnal?

ouh come on!~ you are not even brave to put down your name here....
and you even dare to tell me to behave....

2007-12-02T08:00:00.000-08:00

WOW WOW WOW...

suddenly my blog became so popular...i mean SOO POPULARR..!!
wahh i didn't expect to be so famous after just a post...
aniway,thanx to those who have showed that they 'really care' about the situation i'm in now...(well,not now but a few days ago..)

those advices were so meaningful that it makes me think not twice but more than that..
and also thanx for those experiences that u all have shared..for siding him and all that..okae2 i noe u are sure gotta say that "ehk i'm not siding anyone here,,," butt thats okae for me even if u do or doesn't...it doesn't rily matter...coz you all judge based on just a post..you all didn't know the whole story..you all acted as if you know him really well...but as for me who is with him for almost everiday single day,i can say that i know him inside & out, i know his secrets, i know his weakness, i know his strength, i know his characters and such...

and and and..please..i beg you to leave your real name here...don't just dare to leave critics but don't even dare to leave YOUR NAME..did you know how infuriating it is..?

okae,just until here..i'm tired...anyway,I love You Dear
and
thanx Q!~

2007-11-24T09:10:00.000-08:00

i really hate his characters..........................................

okae..for those who cares,PLEASE read up this post.........

just now around 12am,i msged him and asked what he was doing,,

He replied : "editing my blog...deleted all my post..and now nak buat baru nye.."

can u ever imagined about how i felt at dat moment?? and so i replied,,

"ehk asal delete?? u noe everytime klw kite argue,i will always go to ur blog and read all of those last post...why did u have to delete?? those were our memories.. U don't but i do feel the lost.....Guyz just don't know how to keep & treasure memories.."

and so i turned up to Q(always)..my VERY gud friend of mine..and msged him...

ME : Q..knape eh guys just don't know how to keep & treasure memories?

Q : eh not all guys ehh!! don't easily generalise...

ME : okae i give u a situation..sanggop tak u buang & bakar ur diary whichhave been the witness of ur life,ur love stories,ur thoughts, & ur memories? sanggop tak?

Q : Tak lahh! if sumone did that, it means that he/she wanna forget the past & start anew due to some reasons...

ME : yeah! & u see, he already deleted ALL of his past posts & is otw of making a new one! can u ever imagine about how i felt, how dissappointed i am?? those posts were our memories seyy..our luv, our 'ons & offs'..can u feel how i felt??

Q : I know wat u mean..i must say its hard but honestly..i think u gotta be strong & not rely on him. that is if u don't wanna regret later uh..coz it seems clearly that he isn't comitted and serious about it..

ME : BUT I AM NOT RELYING ON HIM ALL THE TIME OKAE!! itz all baout the matters of 'perasaan'..i didn't ask for any commitments from him...u got me?

and along the way..THAT HIM replied.. "i just want my posts to be relevant wif one another"

and so i told Q..

ME : and u know what he replied? He said 'i just want my posts to be relevant wif one another' !!! can u plz tell me just what crap was thattttt???!!!

Q : wats that suppose to mean seyy? selama nie tu sume tak relevant ke? izit lyke just a play??

ME : That is the reason why i feel dissappointed!.... seriously Q i da tak tahu ape nak cakap lagi..........

and i forwarded to *THAT HIM* wat Q replied to me,,
* whats that suppose to mean seyy? selama nie tu sume tak relevant ke? or izit lyke juz a play??*

and he replied ;; *nono itz not a play..i just don't like the arrangements of my story kat my blog..and the way i put it..haiz..i just want my blog a place to luahkan perasaan i..but itz just not interesting enough..itz boring even when i read it myself..*

so readers,tell me..was his reason acceptable??

and Q replied to my msg..

" OK. i wont hide it animore..not becoz i wanna hurt u. but itz becoz i dun want u to be hurt more. in my point of view, as a guy,he's just giving excusesto distance himself from you. and if i were you..i'll give him that..i'll distnace myslef from him. coz he's not serious about the relationship anymore..."

and so U,, dun blame Q if wateva he said was just not more than crapz or watsoeva..you are 19,and Q is 19 too.. obviously both of u thinks the same...U juz don't continue hurting me this way..

and to Q...thanx for always being dere for me..to give me ur listening ears..to have understands my plights,my sorrowness,to faithfully replying to my 'seeking for opinions' messages....and for being a VERY good friend....(sayang banget sama kamu!)

2007-11-23T05:56:00.000-08:00

Today was the

*BABES & BABIES outing!!*

Fathini brought her niece; baby Afiena
&
Shyda brought her nephew;baby Khairy!!! (and i came alone...)

we seriously had a lot of fun...donned ourselves wif colourful cardigans..and carrying babies in our arms and thus,we got stares from those people around and they must have thought that these babies were born out of wedlock...
i can still feel the cramps on my arms from carrying khairy & afiena..but datz okae..bcoz they are VERY adorable.

and ouh yar, before meeting my babes & babies, i bumped into sumone, an old girlfriend of mine, and i was like "ouh my gosh itz her"....but i juz came to her and say "HI" and "salam" her and answered "ouh im meeting my frenz" to her question and then i said "ouh klah bye;"
datz all.....
(buat ape nak bebual lame2 if me myself i know that i was not being sincere?)

itz not that i hate her but i dunno y lately i've been like 'meluat& menyampah' everytime i look at her pictures or suddenly remembered her and when i heard about the 'changed' HER now..and THE FACT THAT SHE WAS......uhhh....okae..past are not meant to be remembered back..BTW hello,i dun find her pretty or wat...be sure to get the facts right!
(ya Allah asl aku wicked nahh)

okae2..enough about that....just want u readers to enjoy these *poor* picz...;;;

"When eyes meets"

*i am missing my babes already* syg kamu semue!
AndAndAnd..
*Q!!!~ kamu jugak tawww!!* (LOLX)

2007-11-13T07:47:00.000-08:00

DEAR,remember about this video? i showed it to you while we were chatting
on the MSN. we watched it and clicked the button *PLAY* together..
And u told me that u are beginning to fall in LOVE wif this song?

DEAR,itz been 8 months now since our 1st date on the 14th of MARCH...
itz not about the numbers,but the time and period that we have went
thru together...and the patience..and the Love. i've always hope &
pray that our relationship will prolong,until it is stable and when the
perfect time rily comes. i know dat i've never been a good girlfriend
to you, and i'm rily sorry if i've been irritating you....

Happy 8 months, sayang.....

2007-11-04T08:00:00.000-08:00

If a girl cries in front of you, itmeans that she couldn't take itanymore..

If you take heR hand, she would stay with you for the rest of your life;
if you let her go, she couldn't go back to being herself anymore...

A girl wont cry easily,
Except infront of the person who she love the most, she becomes weak..

A girl wont cry easily,
only when she loves you the most, she put down her ego.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you please hold her hands firmly, she's the one who would stay with you for the rest of your life.
Guys, if a girl cries bcoz of you,please dont give her up, maybe bcoz of your decision, you ruin her life.
When she cry rite in front of you,when she cry bcoz of you, Look into her eyes,
Can u see n feel the pain n hurt she's feeling?

Think....

Which other girl have cried wif pure sincerity,
Infront of you,
And bcoz ofyou?
She cry not because she is weak,
She cry not bcoz she want sympathy or pity,
She cry, Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt and agony have become too big a burden to be kept inside...

Guys, Think about it...If a girl cry her heart out 2 you, And all because of you,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only you will know the answer to it.
Do consider it.
Coz one day....
It may be too late for regrets,
It may be too late to say "im sorry".

To my friends...Ponder this message seriously.
Do not do dis to a girl,
You may regret for the rest of yourlife.
Maybe in your life, she's the only one that love YOU the most.

Guys.. If u hav a gal who cry 4 u..think wat u should do straight away.

2007-10-25T06:14:00.000-07:00

Rihanna:]
As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
then i like you for awhile? (No....)

[Ne-Yo:]
But you won't let me
You upset me girl
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

[Rihanna:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it...
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...)
I can't stand how much I need you (I need you...)
And I hate how much I love you boy (oh whoa..)
But I just can't let you go
And I hate that I love you so (oooh..)

[Ne-Yo:]
You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

[Rihanna:]
Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can't stand how much I need you (yeah..)
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can't let you go
But I hate that I love you so

[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

[Rihanna:]
As much I love you (as much as I need you)
As much as I need you (oooh..)
As much I love you (oh..)
As much as I need you

[Rihanna:]
And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

And I hate that I love you so.. so...

2007-10-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

ME & MY OWN GIANT......

He 1.84cm She 1.5cm

2007-10-13T09:22:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA to the readers of my Blog!!!~~

didn't have much to update...
juz the usual yearly visits to my arwah nenek house cum my aunt's house on my dad's side...
and my atok n nenek's house on my mum's side at level 5 the same block as me..
and my 2nd aunt and 1st uncle at woodlands area...
and datz all....

1st day of raye is damn tiring.....
and ouh yar...
i guess diz year, BLACK is the IN colour...
wherever i went,i saw BLACK!}
even my 2nd aunt's family and 4th uncle's family chose BLACK
and not to forget my family too...

juz wanna share wif u sum itsy bitsy of pikchas....

my lil' bro n me in the car~

CUZZIES; wadiah & fasehah

CUZZIES

MUHHAMAD ZIKRI & MUHAMMAD ZAFRI

Them wif my djembes...~

and and and....

Today, 14th of october,

Irsyarudin & Fasehah

have been together for

7 months

hope it wun juz stop here,sayang....

2007-10-03T16:26:00.000-07:00

shocked upon hearing a Raya song on my page??? HEEE;~

I can't wait for raya..seriously...maybe becoz i'm celebrating it wif Dear and we gonna wear BLACK~

BUT..i already got my exam time-table....and uhhhhh....itz freaking mie...

my exam will start on the 1st week of raya.

Paper 1 will be on Friday & the following Monday.
Tuesday & Wednesday is Oral Day.
And on the 25th October right until 2nd November is the written paper exam...

21 DAYS LEFT TO EXAMM....

wah i gotta MUG everything Quick~

And Raya Celebration will not b forgotten okae.....I am rily super excited about dat...

ps/: to THAT someone, UR hair so BUROKness lah okay...and im not just talking about UR HAIR..

2007-10-02T06:27:00.000-07:00

Went out wif Dear yesterday to look for my Raye shoe. Before that,Dear already informed my dad that he wanna take me out and my Dad gave a GREEN LIGHT!~ i didn't brought my money(dat was so damn stupid of me), so we juz window-shopped at Bugis area. i thot of break-fasting at Arab Street but Dear didn't want to. So i juz suggested to go Town and have our Asar prayer at Royal Plaza on Scotts Hotel and then break-fasted at Far East Plaza. So, after prayer we went to the 'restaurant' up there at level 5 FarEastPlaza and reserved our table&foods&drinks. While waiting for maghrib,we juz walked around the shopping centre and took pictures.

"Tall Guy & Short Girl"

Can u see the BIG DIFFERENCE there?

After break-fast[i FINALLY GET TO EAT TOM-YAM!!~~thanx Dear~],went down to AL-FalaH MosQue for Maghrib&Isyak and then Dear paid for the Slurpee&Ice-cream that i have craved for the past 2 weeks~ while waiting for the train home at Orchard Mrt Station, we took diz PIC~

aIN'T IT sWeEt??~

dEAR sent me home and my dad said "terime kasih yer...tahu balik tak tu?" ;-)

2007-09-30T06:36:00.000-07:00

"We Malo" or better prounounciation "Wa Malau"...(What If)....

the song that We fell in LOVE with
the song that started EVERYTHING
the song that opened the door to the FEELINGS

DeAr,,keep HolDiNg On and BeinG pErFeCtLY tOgEtHeR kays...

2007-09-28T08:12:00.000-07:00

i was blog-hopping and saw dear's bro&sis-in-laws-'s bloggie.
clicked to the archives and saw a post dated on the 14th February 2007.

"The date was 14th February 2007. We celebrated
Valentine's Day aka Udin's birthday at Swensen's Changi Airport. Yups...my
brother was born on the day of LURVE....but ironically, he is always out of
lurve...if you know what i mean.
So now, he is searching for lurve. Do not
mistake the lady in the left picture as his new lurve coz that is his MAMA..who
also happens to be my MAMA."

heeheehee...alalala manje nyer dear... mama suap ehh? yaryar last son&child ape. *bluwekx*

well abg is, ur beloved brother ni found his LOVE exactly a month later; *wink*

i'm gonna be away for a night. will only return back on sunday morning. attending qiyamullail at ghufran mosque. starting from 9am on saturday to 9am on sunday. and dear is not online now. he's not even calling me. itz okae. gonna miss him definitely. will be bringing ur sweater taww..buat tido and buat hug2..heee;

dear,i'm leaving u wif diz..

"We Belong Together"

take carez dear; jgn luper puase & solat okaes...
sayang kamu many2!!!~~

2007-09-27T07:58:00.000-07:00

GOSH!!!
yesterday dear told me dat his elder brother n his sister-in-law teased him abt being the bilal 4 zuhur prayers. and obviously they discovered abt it thru my blog in which there's a video of it. i was like "huh? they read my blog? paisey nyer..klw gitu they know abt us lahh?" and dear was like "i think they go to ur blog thru mine.."
actually itz not the 1st tyme dear told me abt this. there was once dear said that both of his bro&sis in law used to teased him wif mentioning "Al-Fasehah" over n over again wen they both came to the family's house. and his elder brother used to msged "blaja rajin2..jgn nak ingat fasehah jek.. ;-p" ....
awwww dearrr...malunyer kiter.....
and when i asked dear,, "so is it a good thing or a bad thing that both of ur bro&sis knows about us?".. dear said "itz a good thing lah..if u wanna know,itz the 1st tyme that they were like so call happily teasing me..last tyme kak zetty(his sis-in-law) used to told me about one of my ex saying dat she's not pretty at all and kak zetty was like *eeehh din,tak lawa nye die...* haha"

and kak zetty, diz irsya here always talk about u and abg Is tau
and he always say dat me n kak zetty have the almost common character..one of the *highlights* is "suker mkn tulang ayam" hee; and he said kak zetty n me can dudok one corner n enjoy the tulang ayam left behind by abg Is and him...tak baek kan dier??~
and mcm2 lagi lah yg die *mengumpat* abt u both....heeez;

hmm okay..till here i'm gonna end my post 4 todae..gotta turn in..itz midnite already..
btw kak zetty and abg Is, diz post is specially dedicated to the both of eu okeys....
(aww dear help me i'm so paisey)
wishing the both of u a happy and blissful marriage with cute and adorable babies soon..i wanna hear the news!~heez;

2007-09-26T00:15:00.000-07:00

i missed school again today. my backbone is still hurting me.

And all of a sudden, i missed my ustadz hudzaifah. after hearing to the song 'farshy turab' which he sang during the teacher's day celebration~ he's gone to medinah to pursue his studies dere. and he left behind memories for me.(seha bluwekx). the jokes,the call-ups,the pekat pronounciation of *FAA-SUI-HAH*,the smiles,the *kaifa haluki ya FAA-SUI-HAH?*,the *maza ya FAA-SUI-HAH?*, the msg, the hadith test paper, and the pictures and the video~~

ustad & baby khairy~

the hadith test paper dat i received a few days after his departure~

look at the writing in red written by HIM~

2007-09-25T08:45:00.000-07:00

i just need your LOVE & *RESPECT*, baby.......